I dunno whether I must be happy or sad to be back in my hometown . Actually , I do really want to stay in Singapore only , so that I can be together with my bf , but at the other side , I also dun want to give more burden to my Dad to pay my living cost in Singapore which is definitely higher than in Malang . Really , I'm gonna miss him sia . Counting down started from today , it's 45 days before I'm coming back to Singapore and back in his arm .
Yesterday was a funny day with him yet memorable . I and him went to Expo , to accompany him buy baby stuffs for his niece . It looked like we were husband and wife sia . Some more , I wore an outfit that looked like pregnant dress . Yeah , no wonder one woman there offered me a "Motherhood" magazine . Omg , I look like mother !!! I'm married :O :O :O , married to my bf , lol (in future lor) , hahaha .
He bought pampers , training pants , and baby food as I remember . We're learning how to be a good parents in that parenting exhibition , lol . Gonna miss that moment . Hahahah funny yet memorable .
Today he sent me to airport by MRT , we walked to Bugis MRT then went straight to Changi MRT station . After I checked in then we ate breakfast first at McDonald in Changi . After that we went to the immigration gate and he kissed me before he said bye . I'm here now in Malang and suffer again because of my allergy of cold air , some more the air becomes colder in June and July , and my nose is stuffed every day and can't breathe , keep coughing also . Oh no...
31 May 2013
30 May 2013
Tomorrow Going Back to Indo ...
Well ... Tomorrow at 11.25 AM , I'll be flying back to Indonesia :( gonna miss him a lot sia ...
I hope I can get scholarship so that I'll be in Singapore again on June because I have to attend the interview session . Yay !!
Anyway , I dunno why my mom's friend is so demanding . I know , helping other people is such a gold thing to do . It's a really nice thing , but asking for a lots of help has never been nice , seriously not nice . Especially the one whom you're asked for help is not so close to you . Today she got ask my mom to ask me help them print the ticket for tomorrow's flight . Whoa , then how ? I dun bring pen drive here ? I even asked my dad , what if I wasn't here ? It would be so damn jialat , whom to ask for help sia ? How to survive ? At least , can ask other people here ? Or ask the people around their house ? Or ask the one rent the house to them ? My mom said coz they dun understand English , alright , that's quite weird , how to talk and consult to the doctors then ? I thought they can speak Chinese ? Hmmm...
So then tonight I must print the ticket and deliver it to them . Lucky I'm not staying in Jurong , if I stayed there , must be so complicated to send it to them .
Some more my mom made a bad jokes , I dun wanna talk about it , coz I hate it so much .
I hope I can get scholarship so that I'll be in Singapore again on June because I have to attend the interview session . Yay !!
Anyway , I dunno why my mom's friend is so demanding . I know , helping other people is such a gold thing to do . It's a really nice thing , but asking for a lots of help has never been nice , seriously not nice . Especially the one whom you're asked for help is not so close to you . Today she got ask my mom to ask me help them print the ticket for tomorrow's flight . Whoa , then how ? I dun bring pen drive here ? I even asked my dad , what if I wasn't here ? It would be so damn jialat , whom to ask for help sia ? How to survive ? At least , can ask other people here ? Or ask the people around their house ? Or ask the one rent the house to them ? My mom said coz they dun understand English , alright , that's quite weird , how to talk and consult to the doctors then ? I thought they can speak Chinese ? Hmmm...
So then tonight I must print the ticket and deliver it to them . Lucky I'm not staying in Jurong , if I stayed there , must be so complicated to send it to them .
Some more my mom made a bad jokes , I dun wanna talk about it , coz I hate it so much .
25 May 2013
Saturday...
Two days before I'm coming back to Singapore . Well... , really can't wait for Monday . Can't wait to see him . Also can't wait to be free from this forever flu .
Then now listening to my mom lecturing me . I think coz she has nothing to do bah , that's why lecturing me . The same topic as last time . My boobs and butt size . Omg , I really can't tahan her lecture you know ? What's wrong with them ? I thought they have no problem ? Even she told me because of them I can't wear some kinds of clothes . What ? Is that a joke ?
I wear this one , she lectures me . Wear that one , she lectures me . So what you want ? Me wearing nothing or what ? I thought by going back to my hometown , can make my heart peaceful . What peaceful ? My life is more beautiful in Singapore I guess .
Like that my mom still can say that living in Malang is better . Ya for her is better , for me is crap .
But if I said like that to her , confirm she'd be saying that I don't love my family anymore , or unwanted child , and scolding me . Wah , so scary sia .
Here in my hometown , I'm flu everyday , definitely can't live here , can't tahan cold and polluted air . I'm allergic to it . I seldom fall sick in Singapore , maybe because the air there is cleaner than here . Not so polluted .
Also here I can't stand some narrow minded people . Force me to think the way they think ? No way ...
Then I can't jog here ... Not safe .
Hmmm ... Life is beautiful .
24 May 2013
Happy Vesak Day , Everyone !
To those who celebrate Vesak day , happy Vesak day ! Today dunno why not a holiday in my hometown , in fact it's Vesak day today ? Hmmm ...
Today my grandma checked out from hospital . So ya today was so busy in the morning . My mom even woke me up early in the morning to help her sweep the floor and then we went straight to market to buy the ingredient for making today's meal and the 饺子 to be given to my bf and his family , my mom made and I helped her a bit with it . I can't really cook though , haha .
After that went to hospital to fetch my grandma . Then came back home and continued cooking .
Three days before I'm coming back to Singapore . Can't wait to see him ...
Well , he asked me to go out on Tuesday night but then now I just realized that I have to help the graduation show on that day till 10.00 PM , oh no ! I hope can watch midnight movie ?
Well ... I dunno . Okay , so I hope he read this blog , I dun want to disturb him for now , maybe he's still playing game ? Coz he seems busy , from the way he replied my text .
I also don't understand why my mom always doesn't like me to be in my room . It's the most comfy room in my house . Outside is cold , here is warm .
Anyway , I just realized that guys never had one gf only . They always have at least one and that's game . It's always be their first place gf and the problem is that we girls can't get jealous of it . You're totally retard if you're jealous of it . I also dun wanna be in that first place , coz they'll play you only . Of course they always have time for you , but I won't ever want to be treated like a game . Treat me like a game , I'll show how it's played .
Even my bro said the same thing that what I said about game and guys is true . He also said that his first gf is game , second is a girl .
Even my best friend also said that if he could , he's gonna marry his laptop instead of marrying a woman .
Hmmm right . Haha
Lol just now my bro talked to my bf . Hahaha he said that he doesn't understand singlish that my bf uses . Well slowly learn , then can talk in singlish lor . Haha
The thing that I HATE the most is being ignored . Ya , he got ignore me today sia .
See , last time I still remember , when he texted and then I had no reply , he asked me why no reply , of course because you only said "ok" , I also dunno what to reply . So then since then I always reply lor .
Now , what I got ? Ignored . Nice sia . Even my bro was like surprised coz I no texting him but my bro got text text text text text text text text text to and from him .
Hmmm alrighty then , nvm . I'm fine .
Maybe I'm boring , useless , and failed , totally failed as a gf .
Maybe I'm not needed anymore ?
Or maybe I deserve to be forgotten ?
Thank you for ignoring me ...
Today my grandma checked out from hospital . So ya today was so busy in the morning . My mom even woke me up early in the morning to help her sweep the floor and then we went straight to market to buy the ingredient for making today's meal and the 饺子 to be given to my bf and his family , my mom made and I helped her a bit with it . I can't really cook though , haha .
After that went to hospital to fetch my grandma . Then came back home and continued cooking .
Three days before I'm coming back to Singapore . Can't wait to see him ...
Well , he asked me to go out on Tuesday night but then now I just realized that I have to help the graduation show on that day till 10.00 PM , oh no ! I hope can watch midnight movie ?
Well ... I dunno . Okay , so I hope he read this blog , I dun want to disturb him for now , maybe he's still playing game ? Coz he seems busy , from the way he replied my text .
I also don't understand why my mom always doesn't like me to be in my room . It's the most comfy room in my house . Outside is cold , here is warm .
Anyway , I just realized that guys never had one gf only . They always have at least one and that's game . It's always be their first place gf and the problem is that we girls can't get jealous of it . You're totally retard if you're jealous of it . I also dun wanna be in that first place , coz they'll play you only . Of course they always have time for you , but I won't ever want to be treated like a game . Treat me like a game , I'll show how it's played .
Even my bro said the same thing that what I said about game and guys is true . He also said that his first gf is game , second is a girl .
Even my best friend also said that if he could , he's gonna marry his laptop instead of marrying a woman .
Hmmm right . Haha
Lol just now my bro talked to my bf . Hahaha he said that he doesn't understand singlish that my bf uses . Well slowly learn , then can talk in singlish lor . Haha
The thing that I HATE the most is being ignored . Ya , he got ignore me today sia .
See , last time I still remember , when he texted and then I had no reply , he asked me why no reply , of course because you only said "ok" , I also dunno what to reply . So then since then I always reply lor .
Now , what I got ? Ignored . Nice sia . Even my bro was like surprised coz I no texting him but my bro got text text text text text text text text text to and from him .
Hmmm alrighty then , nvm . I'm fine .
Maybe I'm boring , useless , and failed , totally failed as a gf .
Maybe I'm not needed anymore ?
Or maybe I deserve to be forgotten ?
Thank you for ignoring me ...
23 May 2013
Anyway , My School is NAFA , not NTU
It's quite surprising when on Monday night , my Dad asked me ,"So how's the life in NTU ?"
I was like what ? NTU ? How do I know ?
Then I asked him ,"What ? NTU ?"
"Ya , your school right ?"
"What ?? No , that's not my school !"
"Really ? I thought your school is Nanyang ?"
Then he told me that last time got one customer in his restaurant , asking about what school I go to in Singapore . He said to them that I go to Nanyang . Then the customer said ,"Oh , that must be NTU !"
Oh no la , no way I go to NTU . It's also Nanyang , but NTU is Nanyang Technological University , mine is NAFA , Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts .
Anyway , dunno why today when my mom kept asking about my bf like about what he likes , etc and then my bro instantly wanted his number . I was like for what ?
Then he said to talk to my bf , about games and anime . At first I didn't wanna give it to him , but then my mom looked at me with uncomfortable look . Then said ,"Just give la ! Why ? You and him keep something secretly from your family ?"
Scary , so ok I gave it to him lor . Wah Liao , why always want to know about my business with him sia . Just let us enjoy our relationship la . Just like my father , he never ask me anything about my relationship , unless something important like my bf's name , or what languages he speaks . The other things , he doesn't really bother . My mom and my brother , wah Liao , always need update everyday .
My mom also got talk about my boobs and butt size . Omg she said that they're too big . What ?? I thought my boobs are not so big ? Oh or maybe coz mine are slightly bigger than hers ? About my butt it's ok la , I told her ,"Mom , some guys like big butt , sexy lor ! So I don't need any plastic surgery to make it bigger , it's natural , lol "
Then she asked ,"Really meh ? Then you mean your bf like your butt and boobs ?"
"Dunno le , maybe ? Haha it's good if he likes lor "
"Wah Liao , you ah , everytime say sexy sexy , but you must know how to control your self hor ! Dun anyhow do sex , better do after marriage !"
Lol
Anyway , I regret going back at July 15th , I should have gone back before June 28th ... If I hadn't booked the ticket for July 15th , I'd have been a student leader for freshmen :(
Oh no ...
Okay nvm then , no choice ...
Anyway , last time I bought wine from airport , then they gave the plastic to cover the wine , and got writing there "SGP / Nanyang"
Then my dad asked me ,"Whoa your school got sell alcoholic drinks meh ?"
I was surprised till he showed me that writing . So I was like , okay... Then I explained to him that it's alr like that when I bought the wine in airport .
Last year , I did really enjoy being back in hometown , but now , I feel like something is missing . I miss my bf .
I become more sensitive also lately , maybe it's almost my period , that's why ...
Hmmm...
I was like what ? NTU ? How do I know ?
Then I asked him ,"What ? NTU ?"
"Ya , your school right ?"
"What ?? No , that's not my school !"
"Really ? I thought your school is Nanyang ?"
Then he told me that last time got one customer in his restaurant , asking about what school I go to in Singapore . He said to them that I go to Nanyang . Then the customer said ,"Oh , that must be NTU !"
Oh no la , no way I go to NTU . It's also Nanyang , but NTU is Nanyang Technological University , mine is NAFA , Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts .
Anyway , dunno why today when my mom kept asking about my bf like about what he likes , etc and then my bro instantly wanted his number . I was like for what ?
Then he said to talk to my bf , about games and anime . At first I didn't wanna give it to him , but then my mom looked at me with uncomfortable look . Then said ,"Just give la ! Why ? You and him keep something secretly from your family ?"
Scary , so ok I gave it to him lor . Wah Liao , why always want to know about my business with him sia . Just let us enjoy our relationship la . Just like my father , he never ask me anything about my relationship , unless something important like my bf's name , or what languages he speaks . The other things , he doesn't really bother . My mom and my brother , wah Liao , always need update everyday .
My mom also got talk about my boobs and butt size . Omg she said that they're too big . What ?? I thought my boobs are not so big ? Oh or maybe coz mine are slightly bigger than hers ? About my butt it's ok la , I told her ,"Mom , some guys like big butt , sexy lor ! So I don't need any plastic surgery to make it bigger , it's natural , lol "
Then she asked ,"Really meh ? Then you mean your bf like your butt and boobs ?"
"Dunno le , maybe ? Haha it's good if he likes lor "
"Wah Liao , you ah , everytime say sexy sexy , but you must know how to control your self hor ! Dun anyhow do sex , better do after marriage !"
Lol
Anyway , I regret going back at July 15th , I should have gone back before June 28th ... If I hadn't booked the ticket for July 15th , I'd have been a student leader for freshmen :(
Oh no ...
Okay nvm then , no choice ...
Anyway , last time I bought wine from airport , then they gave the plastic to cover the wine , and got writing there "SGP / Nanyang"
Then my dad asked me ,"Whoa your school got sell alcoholic drinks meh ?"
I was surprised till he showed me that writing . So I was like , okay... Then I explained to him that it's alr like that when I bought the wine in airport .
Last year , I did really enjoy being back in hometown , but now , I feel like something is missing . I miss my bf .
I become more sensitive also lately , maybe it's almost my period , that's why ...
Hmmm...
22 May 2013
Well...
Today , I visited my grandma's house . Then I prayed there , greet my grandpa's spirit . After that I talked to my grandma from my Dad's side . She asked a lots of things . My aunty also called her today then she talked to me by phone . You know what's the first thing she asked after she asked me about when I reached Malang ? She asked ,"Hey , I heard you got 男朋友 alr ?? Really ?? Hey you owe a story to me ah ! Hahaha finally you got one ! Is that true ?"
"What true ?"
"That you got 男朋友 ?"
"Hehehe..."
"Wah Liao , laugh only sia !"
Lol you know already , why still ask ? Lol find it by your self . I didn't answer her anything but laughed . My grandma also asked me the same thing ,"蓉 娌 ah , you got 小 哥 ( this is how she calls bf ) from 新加坡 ?"
I was like , wow , she doesn't have any social network account on Internet , how she know ??
Then I didn't answer , just smiled at her . I think by acting like that , she'd know already .
Hmmm later la , let all know by them selves , lol
Today is my bf's father bday . Then he asked me to send voice message trough we chat . So I sent lor , with my embarrassing Chinese , saying happy birthday wishes in Chinese . Then after that his father replied my voice message . Not sure what he said , but I think he said "蓉 娌 啊 ，好 上 课 ah , 谢 谢 你 , ok ? 谢谢 ＂
Dunno whether it's correct or no . My Chinese is not so good .
Lol
"What true ?"
"That you got 男朋友 ?"
"Hehehe..."
"Wah Liao , laugh only sia !"
Lol you know already , why still ask ? Lol find it by your self . I didn't answer her anything but laughed . My grandma also asked me the same thing ,"蓉 娌 ah , you got 小 哥 ( this is how she calls bf ) from 新加坡 ?"
I was like , wow , she doesn't have any social network account on Internet , how she know ??
Then I didn't answer , just smiled at her . I think by acting like that , she'd know already .
Hmmm later la , let all know by them selves , lol
Today is my bf's father bday . Then he asked me to send voice message trough we chat . So I sent lor , with my embarrassing Chinese , saying happy birthday wishes in Chinese . Then after that his father replied my voice message . Not sure what he said , but I think he said "蓉 娌 啊 ，好 上 课 ah , 谢 谢 你 , ok ? 谢谢 ＂
Dunno whether it's correct or no . My Chinese is not so good .
Lol
21 May 2013
I Think...
Anyway , how to level up my Chinese in one month only ? Hmmm ... That's a new thing that keeps haunting me . My mom said that it's impossible to find a teacher who wants to teach you Chinese for one month only . Noooooo , then how ?? Talking to my friend in china via phone ?
What haunts me is what if he leave me because my Chinese is so bad ? What if his parents dislike me because of this matter ?
At least I always try to learn learn and learn . I listen more to Chinese songs , watch Chinese dramas , watch Chinese movies , talk in Chinese to my parents , although they dun take it as serious action . Hmmm no choice. It's just that I will always try and l will not stop learning .
Maybe one day my parents find so many notes written in Chinese stick on my entire wall inside my room , then my mom scold me and send me back ASAP to Singapore so that I won't dirty my room wall but my hostel wall better . Whoa such a nice trick sia ! Must try must try ! Lol so that I can be in Singapore again faster without waiting for July 15th ...
Maybe too it's because I have no confidence in speaking in Chinese but actually I can speak in Chinese . I dunno also , but sometimes I do feel like that ...
For instant example : I won't talk in Chinese to my Chinese classmates , unless it's really urgent and no choice , I'll speak in Chinese . Or maybe if I have Chinese roommate , also no choice , must speak Chinese if she really has no idea of what I'm talking about . Although my Chinese is so embarrassing , so confidence is the key now .
Okay I found it !!
I Miss You
Well ... Second day in Malang , and I never go to any shopping malls here . So sian ...
Missing him also ... Normally if I'm in Singapore , I can go meet him still , maybe in Bugis or somewhere else . Now can only talk through what's app ... Half of my heart is left in Singapore , next week will fly back to Singapore though . Meeting half of my heart there then will leave it again there till July 15th ... No wonder I feel so incomplete now ...
Anyway , my room is really a store room now . How come got sewing machine inside my room sia ? Also got some boxes of used stuffs . Wah Liao , totally store room sia . Whatever , at least I can still sleep , lol . Got bolster also ! Yay , can sleep with comfy bolster .
My puppy also so cute sia . Got fatter , lol . Cute !! I play with it a lot .
Well ... I dunno why , I feel like really wanna stay in Singapore only , maybe because of the case of my half heart is still left there . That's why here I can only do stuff with half of my heart or sometimes with a quarter of my heart only . Sian...
Next week coming back to Singapore and then going back here again on may 31st . Gonna leave my half heart there again ...
Missing him also ... Normally if I'm in Singapore , I can go meet him still , maybe in Bugis or somewhere else . Now can only talk through what's app ... Half of my heart is left in Singapore , next week will fly back to Singapore though . Meeting half of my heart there then will leave it again there till July 15th ... No wonder I feel so incomplete now ...
Anyway , my room is really a store room now . How come got sewing machine inside my room sia ? Also got some boxes of used stuffs . Wah Liao , totally store room sia . Whatever , at least I can still sleep , lol . Got bolster also ! Yay , can sleep with comfy bolster .
My puppy also so cute sia . Got fatter , lol . Cute !! I play with it a lot .
Well ... I dunno why , I feel like really wanna stay in Singapore only , maybe because of the case of my half heart is still left there . That's why here I can only do stuff with half of my heart or sometimes with a quarter of my heart only . Sian...
Next week coming back to Singapore and then going back here again on may 31st . Gonna leave my half heart there again ...
19 May 2013
13 Hours and 20 Minutes Before I'm Flying Back to Malang
Well... tomorrow I'm going back to Malang , my flight is at 11.50 AM , but must be there two hours before the flight . Ya , so tomorrow night I won't be seeing high rise building view with lots of lights anymore . I have to wait till next Monday when I'm coming back here . So funny , one week in Malang and 5 days here and then must go back Malang again . Month full of flights . It's okay , seeing my family again , missing them already ...
Tomorrow I also need to bring the durian cakes my Mom requested me . I dunno whether it won't spoil till it reach Malang or it will . I don't really care since I'm not eating it and I already tried my best by putting it inside cooling bag .
Hope the flight is okay and can see my family again . Then I'll be a mommy's girl . Then I'll be sleeping on my own bed , yeah so comfy . Without roommate of course . Haha ...
I think I'll reach Surabaya by 12.45 PM ...
Then I'll be watching Animax with my brother EVERYDAY . Boring TV . Can't watch MTV also .
Then the other unusual things are that there are no bf , no koi , no much blog updates , and no more jogging at night (try jogging at night in my hometown , back home there are only three possibilities : 1. Still alive and safe aka so damn lucky , 2. Loosing my most precious thing as an unmarried girl 3. dead , kena murder) .
Then I'll be waking up early (or late , if lucky , haha) and clean my house .
Anyway , about cleaning house right , I always help my mum sweep the floor , wash dishes , mop the floor , make my bed after waking up , cleaning my own room , just like Cinderella . Last time , I and my best friends always have our special 'name' , my best friends got Snow White and Aurora , mine is Cinderella . Since it's so damn difficult to ask me out . I always say that my mom ask me to clean the house , just like Cinderella . Waiting for my prince to bring me my glass shoes . Lol , romantic sia , just a dream anyway .
Gonna be in second year on July . Finally no longer first year student . Then I have to have sleepless nights again . I'll be like zombie and dress like house wife .
Oh no... my daily life is gonna change soon .
Last year , I always want to go back hometown , dunno why this year , I feel like gonna stay in Singapore only , no need to go back to Malang . I think you know why right ?
Yeah , you know ...
Tomorrow I also need to bring the durian cakes my Mom requested me . I dunno whether it won't spoil till it reach Malang or it will . I don't really care since I'm not eating it and I already tried my best by putting it inside cooling bag .
Hope the flight is okay and can see my family again . Then I'll be a mommy's girl . Then I'll be sleeping on my own bed , yeah so comfy . Without roommate of course . Haha ...
I think I'll reach Surabaya by 12.45 PM ...
Then I'll be watching Animax with my brother EVERYDAY . Boring TV . Can't watch MTV also .
Then the other unusual things are that there are no bf , no koi , no much blog updates , and no more jogging at night (try jogging at night in my hometown , back home there are only three possibilities : 1. Still alive and safe aka so damn lucky , 2. Loosing my most precious thing as an unmarried girl 3. dead , kena murder) .
Then I'll be waking up early (or late , if lucky , haha) and clean my house .
Anyway , about cleaning house right , I always help my mum sweep the floor , wash dishes , mop the floor , make my bed after waking up , cleaning my own room , just like Cinderella . Last time , I and my best friends always have our special 'name' , my best friends got Snow White and Aurora , mine is Cinderella . Since it's so damn difficult to ask me out . I always say that my mom ask me to clean the house , just like Cinderella . Waiting for my prince to bring me my glass shoes . Lol , romantic sia , just a dream anyway .
Gonna be in second year on July . Finally no longer first year student . Then I have to have sleepless nights again . I'll be like zombie and dress like house wife .
Oh no... my daily life is gonna change soon .
Last year , I always want to go back hometown , dunno why this year , I feel like gonna stay in Singapore only , no need to go back to Malang . I think you know why right ?
Yeah , you know ...
17 May 2013
What a Life ...
Hi , my blog ...
I'm ... sad... :(
I sometimes think that life is beautiful . Ya , actually it's beautiful when you can really enjoy it . When everything go smoothly and you have freedom . When there's no envy , and you can do whatever you want .
Guess not all life is like that . For instant , mine . Actually some people might see that I'm so lucky , or I must be so happy having life like this . I know that . Sometimes , I do feel lucky about my life also , but sometimes , I'm also thinking about why I'm having such a life like this .
I'm lucky , coz I can go study overseas . I'm lucky , coz I have parents allow me to have bf , and I'm lucky also to finally have a perfect bf who's really my type . I'm lucky , coz I can study what I want . I'm lucky also , to have sibling and not being the only child .
The thing is that , my life values , which is different from my parent's life values . Sometimes , I ask my self , whether I have already done the right things or no . Whether I have already done the best or no . I really don't understand . Even right or wrong things , there is no absolute limit about them . I can say that it's right , but other people can say that it's wrong , I can say that it's wrong , but other people might see it as right thing . That's what normally happens between me and my parents . I'm no longer young girl anymore that need parents to decide my values . I already decided my values . I don't think I'm a bad girl . I never do crimes , never been in jail , and always try my best to do what my parents want . Some of their rules , I can do really well , but some of them are bloody sucks , and against my values . I know , I appreciate their mindset , I know that they always follow east people's mindset . Those old fashioned mindset , I understand . My mindset is like 70% different from theirs . I don't mean to run against their mindset , but it's just already like that . It's not that I'm a rebel that never obey parents mindset . It's just that my values are already decided by my self . I can't run against my values also , since it's my life . I felt like I'm stuck in between two cliffs . Can't really run to the right or left . Sometimes , it's hard to follow your heart . Truth does hurt , as a wise man said .
Is it wrong to become an open minded person ? I don't think it's wrong , but it's way so wrong for my family . They said that I have been in wrong way of friendship . No , I strongly disagree about that . My friends are kind of nice and open minded people . They understand me well . It's just that they give me new view of life values . It's nobody's decision , the life values are 100% my decision .
I even can't stand about what they want sometimes . I know they want me to be safe , I know they want the best for me . Please stop treating like I'm a fragile little innocent girl . Even things like dating with my bf also they have such strict rules . Can just hold hands ? What ? Please , in this era , hold hands only ? When I told them that I hug also , they were a bit surprised . Whoa , nice , what if they know that I kissed also ? No wonder last time I got draw manga about two people kissing , they're so suspicious of me . Their mindset is like if I kiss then I'm pregnant . Omg , where got theory like that ? Pregnant can happen if the guy's sperm met the girl's ovum , not when the guy's saliva met the girl's saliva . Also , it's not like when you kiss then you must continue it with having sex aka coitus with your partner .
I admit it , last time I also got a thinking that kissing is disgusting and must be done after you're married only , but that was like when I was 10 . Now I'm almost 19 , not 9 . I know already , what kind of things I must do and what kind of things that I should not do , and when I should do the things .
I understand , they always want me to be their baby girl forever . Ya , I understand . But please do understand also , that I need space to grow up , to be independent , to learn how to solve my own problem , to learn how to make a self decision , to learn how to take a risk at something , and to realize that it's my life . My life , my fault , my problem . I do , and I know everything in this world has risks . I do understand about that . I just want more freedom . Is that difficult ?
One thing that always swims inside my mind , do they realize that I already grown up ?
I don't mean to say that I don't need parents anymore . I do still need them , I do still obey them , and thank them for creating me in this world , but am I created to be tortured ?
If you ask me whether I still love my life or not , I will definitely say that I do . I do love my life , it's just that , lots of question marks inside my mind . Without any answer . Maybe they don't need answers , or maybe they're just way too complicated . Yeah... life is never flat !
I'm ... sad... :(
I sometimes think that life is beautiful . Ya , actually it's beautiful when you can really enjoy it . When everything go smoothly and you have freedom . When there's no envy , and you can do whatever you want .
Guess not all life is like that . For instant , mine . Actually some people might see that I'm so lucky , or I must be so happy having life like this . I know that . Sometimes , I do feel lucky about my life also , but sometimes , I'm also thinking about why I'm having such a life like this .
I'm lucky , coz I can go study overseas . I'm lucky , coz I have parents allow me to have bf , and I'm lucky also to finally have a perfect bf who's really my type . I'm lucky , coz I can study what I want . I'm lucky also , to have sibling and not being the only child .
The thing is that , my life values , which is different from my parent's life values . Sometimes , I ask my self , whether I have already done the right things or no . Whether I have already done the best or no . I really don't understand . Even right or wrong things , there is no absolute limit about them . I can say that it's right , but other people can say that it's wrong , I can say that it's wrong , but other people might see it as right thing . That's what normally happens between me and my parents . I'm no longer young girl anymore that need parents to decide my values . I already decided my values . I don't think I'm a bad girl . I never do crimes , never been in jail , and always try my best to do what my parents want . Some of their rules , I can do really well , but some of them are bloody sucks , and against my values . I know , I appreciate their mindset , I know that they always follow east people's mindset . Those old fashioned mindset , I understand . My mindset is like 70% different from theirs . I don't mean to run against their mindset , but it's just already like that . It's not that I'm a rebel that never obey parents mindset . It's just that my values are already decided by my self . I can't run against my values also , since it's my life . I felt like I'm stuck in between two cliffs . Can't really run to the right or left . Sometimes , it's hard to follow your heart . Truth does hurt , as a wise man said .
Is it wrong to become an open minded person ? I don't think it's wrong , but it's way so wrong for my family . They said that I have been in wrong way of friendship . No , I strongly disagree about that . My friends are kind of nice and open minded people . They understand me well . It's just that they give me new view of life values . It's nobody's decision , the life values are 100% my decision .
I even can't stand about what they want sometimes . I know they want me to be safe , I know they want the best for me . Please stop treating like I'm a fragile little innocent girl . Even things like dating with my bf also they have such strict rules . Can just hold hands ? What ? Please , in this era , hold hands only ? When I told them that I hug also , they were a bit surprised . Whoa , nice , what if they know that I kissed also ? No wonder last time I got draw manga about two people kissing , they're so suspicious of me . Their mindset is like if I kiss then I'm pregnant . Omg , where got theory like that ? Pregnant can happen if the guy's sperm met the girl's ovum , not when the guy's saliva met the girl's saliva . Also , it's not like when you kiss then you must continue it with having sex aka coitus with your partner .
I admit it , last time I also got a thinking that kissing is disgusting and must be done after you're married only , but that was like when I was 10 . Now I'm almost 19 , not 9 . I know already , what kind of things I must do and what kind of things that I should not do , and when I should do the things .
I understand , they always want me to be their baby girl forever . Ya , I understand . But please do understand also , that I need space to grow up , to be independent , to learn how to solve my own problem , to learn how to make a self decision , to learn how to take a risk at something , and to realize that it's my life . My life , my fault , my problem . I do , and I know everything in this world has risks . I do understand about that . I just want more freedom . Is that difficult ?
One thing that always swims inside my mind , do they realize that I already grown up ?
I don't mean to say that I don't need parents anymore . I do still need them , I do still obey them , and thank them for creating me in this world , but am I created to be tortured ?
If you ask me whether I still love my life or not , I will definitely say that I do . I do love my life , it's just that , lots of question marks inside my mind . Without any answer . Maybe they don't need answers , or maybe they're just way too complicated . Yeah... life is never flat !
My Mom Asked Me About My Dreams
Ya , just now , my mom asked me about my dreams . She wanted to know about my dream of my grandpa . Then I told her about that la . She said that's quite impossible , how come my grandpa knew about Bugis ? Even knew about my bf ?
Ya , that's why it's called dream , everything is legal inside dream . Even if you do crimes inside dream is also legal , as long as it's a D-R-E-A-M . I'm not a crimes dreamer though .
After that she asked me whether I told my bf about this dream . Then I said ya I did . She asked me how he knew about me having weird dreams . Then I said that it's from my FB status .
She asked me to be careful when I put status on FB , since my aunties and my cousins are so kay poh . After that she told me that she never knew why my aunty always wants to know about me . I know , last time she told my Mom that actually she doesn't like me to study overseas . She said that it's dangerous to study in Singapore . That statement makes me feel annoyed . Really . I really want to tell her ,"Stop talking about something when you know nothing about it ! You even never visited Singapore before , how you know that it's dangerous ? I think you're wrong , my hometown is way more dangerous , even the laws in Indonesia has never been clear , they are always blur ! As long as you have money , then you can do whatever you want !"
She has one daughter in law , just call her May . May married to my cousin on last December . I don't know what's wrong with her , but she often checks my FB and often reports about my status to my aunty , aka her mother in law . Omg , I think I'm not a celebrity , why keep stalking my FB updates ? I don't need a babysitter , ok ? I'm almost 19 , not 9 . Last time she got see my pic wearing bikini on FB and she reported it to my aunty , then my aunty scolded my Mom (my mom is her younger sister) . She said that my Mom is failed in raising a daughter . What ? It's not a naked pic anyway , and still scolding my mom ? Please la , before you scold my Mom , better you take a look at your daughter first . I don't think you raise your daughter in the right way also . See , your daughter , keep changing bf , like she changes T-shirt , just like a playgirl . So funny also , why you always join your daughter every time she goes dating ? My mom is better than you . She always understands me , she protects me . At least , she understands , never join me and my bf every time I go dating . She trusts me . She knows which one is the right guy and which one is the wrong guy , so that I won't change change bf like I change T-shirt .My mom always understands that I need privacy .
Also , please la , don't be so kay poh about me . My mom never been so kay poh about you and your daughter , why so kaypoh about my life ?
The funny part of my talking to my mom was when she told me not to give her number to my bf . Hahaha , she said that last time , when I gave her number to my ex , he kept texting her , and she said that it's disturbing . Even she reminded me about one week before I broke up with him , and I kept in quiet , never replied his text , he got text her "Aunty , why she's so quiet ? Never replied my message for these few days ? "
My mom said "How do I know ?? Ask her la !"
I told my mom ,"You should have said 'ah boy , you must be smarter next time in reading girl's language , if she behaves like that , it means , get ready for a break up and don't ever visit my house again , okay ? bye bye ah boy' , like that Mom !"
Haha , one thing I can say about my ex , he's blur . Once I wrote a status on FB stating that I wanted to be single again , and he texted my mom , almost cried , and saying "Aunty , she wants to be single again ! How ???" Then my Mom said ,"Ah boy , aunty also dunno what to do , you go talk to her la ! Aunty is still busy , talk later "
Wah liao , if I wrote like that , means there's something wrong with the relationship . So blur sia . Psycho ex .
Now it's different , my current bf is not a psycho , so I never wrote a status like that , coz I don't wanna be single again lor . I do enjoy this relationship and nothing wrong with it .
Lol , then my mom reminded me also , after the night I broke up with him , the next day , he came to my house . Oh ya , that day . The day when my brother was not 'friend' with me . I knew already that the one who kept pressing the bell was that psycho ex , and I told my bro already to 'save' me . I told him ,"Just say that jie jie is sleeping , ok ? Don't open the door !"
But , my brother was 'stubborn' that day , he opened the gate . Omg , then no choice , he talked to me in the living room , my Mom was inside her bed room , my brother was inside his room also . Jialat . I was frozen there for like 30 minutes , listening to him begging me to be his gf again . I told him no , no , no , no like thousand times and he still asked asked asked . Lucky , got my course teacher came to my house and I got reason to ask him go back to his boarding house , I said that I need to study . My course teacher was a savior , lol .
Then on phone , my Mom said that she wants to hear my bf's voice . She asked me ,"How's his voice ?"
I was like how can I explain ? It's voice , not a math which can be explained .
Maybe , on Saturday , he can talk to her la , just say "hi Aunty " or something . Just to let my mom knows his voice .
Ya , that's why it's called dream , everything is legal inside dream . Even if you do crimes inside dream is also legal , as long as it's a D-R-E-A-M . I'm not a crimes dreamer though .
After that she asked me whether I told my bf about this dream . Then I said ya I did . She asked me how he knew about me having weird dreams . Then I said that it's from my FB status .
She asked me to be careful when I put status on FB , since my aunties and my cousins are so kay poh . After that she told me that she never knew why my aunty always wants to know about me . I know , last time she told my Mom that actually she doesn't like me to study overseas . She said that it's dangerous to study in Singapore . That statement makes me feel annoyed . Really . I really want to tell her ,"Stop talking about something when you know nothing about it ! You even never visited Singapore before , how you know that it's dangerous ? I think you're wrong , my hometown is way more dangerous , even the laws in Indonesia has never been clear , they are always blur ! As long as you have money , then you can do whatever you want !"
She has one daughter in law , just call her May . May married to my cousin on last December . I don't know what's wrong with her , but she often checks my FB and often reports about my status to my aunty , aka her mother in law . Omg , I think I'm not a celebrity , why keep stalking my FB updates ? I don't need a babysitter , ok ? I'm almost 19 , not 9 . Last time she got see my pic wearing bikini on FB and she reported it to my aunty , then my aunty scolded my Mom (my mom is her younger sister) . She said that my Mom is failed in raising a daughter . What ? It's not a naked pic anyway , and still scolding my mom ? Please la , before you scold my Mom , better you take a look at your daughter first . I don't think you raise your daughter in the right way also . See , your daughter , keep changing bf , like she changes T-shirt , just like a playgirl . So funny also , why you always join your daughter every time she goes dating ? My mom is better than you . She always understands me , she protects me . At least , she understands , never join me and my bf every time I go dating . She trusts me . She knows which one is the right guy and which one is the wrong guy , so that I won't change change bf like I change T-shirt .My mom always understands that I need privacy .
Also , please la , don't be so kay poh about me . My mom never been so kay poh about you and your daughter , why so kaypoh about my life ?
The funny part of my talking to my mom was when she told me not to give her number to my bf . Hahaha , she said that last time , when I gave her number to my ex , he kept texting her , and she said that it's disturbing . Even she reminded me about one week before I broke up with him , and I kept in quiet , never replied his text , he got text her "Aunty , why she's so quiet ? Never replied my message for these few days ? "
My mom said "How do I know ?? Ask her la !"
I told my mom ,"You should have said 'ah boy , you must be smarter next time in reading girl's language , if she behaves like that , it means , get ready for a break up and don't ever visit my house again , okay ? bye bye ah boy' , like that Mom !"
Haha , one thing I can say about my ex , he's blur . Once I wrote a status on FB stating that I wanted to be single again , and he texted my mom , almost cried , and saying "Aunty , she wants to be single again ! How ???" Then my Mom said ,"Ah boy , aunty also dunno what to do , you go talk to her la ! Aunty is still busy , talk later "
Wah liao , if I wrote like that , means there's something wrong with the relationship . So blur sia . Psycho ex .
Now it's different , my current bf is not a psycho , so I never wrote a status like that , coz I don't wanna be single again lor . I do enjoy this relationship and nothing wrong with it .
Lol , then my mom reminded me also , after the night I broke up with him , the next day , he came to my house . Oh ya , that day . The day when my brother was not 'friend' with me . I knew already that the one who kept pressing the bell was that psycho ex , and I told my bro already to 'save' me . I told him ,"Just say that jie jie is sleeping , ok ? Don't open the door !"
But , my brother was 'stubborn' that day , he opened the gate . Omg , then no choice , he talked to me in the living room , my Mom was inside her bed room , my brother was inside his room also . Jialat . I was frozen there for like 30 minutes , listening to him begging me to be his gf again . I told him no , no , no , no like thousand times and he still asked asked asked . Lucky , got my course teacher came to my house and I got reason to ask him go back to his boarding house , I said that I need to study . My course teacher was a savior , lol .
Then on phone , my Mom said that she wants to hear my bf's voice . She asked me ,"How's his voice ?"
I was like how can I explain ? It's voice , not a math which can be explained .
Maybe , on Saturday , he can talk to her la , just say "hi Aunty " or something . Just to let my mom knows his voice .
16 May 2013
Strange Dreams
Ya , when I was sleeping last night . I got some weird strange scary dreams . I dunno why those dreams appeared in my sleep . Maybe because the scary story my Mom told me before I went to sleep , or maybe I was too tired , I dunno also .
First dream was my big family coming to Singapore , they were in Bugis Plus as I remember . Then my bf also there and my big family knew about him , guess I intro him to them in my dream . Then I dunno why also , my grandpa already passed away and he was there ? Even I helped him walk downstairs by escalator . Hmmm weird ... okay...
Then next , the second one I couldn't really remember .
The third one , was disgusting . Wth , I was almost being raped by a ladyboy . Aaaaaaaaaaaaa .... he (she) kidnapped me and brought me to Burlington Square where he (she) lives . Then ya that thing was almost happened and I kept pushing him (her) away so that he (she) couldn't come near me and do that thing . Till then lucky someone knocked her door . That was the time I ran away .
The fourth one was disgusting also . A cockroach climbed on my foot and the others flied around me . Ewwww...
Strange dreams ....
I was awake few times . Every time I finished one dream , I was awake ...
Gonna go Bugis later , remembering my dream again .... I need Koi...
Aaaaa refresh my mind ...
Nightmare , bad dreams ...
First dream was my big family coming to Singapore , they were in Bugis Plus as I remember . Then my bf also there and my big family knew about him , guess I intro him to them in my dream . Then I dunno why also , my grandpa already passed away and he was there ? Even I helped him walk downstairs by escalator . Hmmm weird ... okay...
Then next , the second one I couldn't really remember .
The third one , was disgusting . Wth , I was almost being raped by a ladyboy . Aaaaaaaaaaaaa .... he (she) kidnapped me and brought me to Burlington Square where he (she) lives . Then ya that thing was almost happened and I kept pushing him (her) away so that he (she) couldn't come near me and do that thing . Till then lucky someone knocked her door . That was the time I ran away .
The fourth one was disgusting also . A cockroach climbed on my foot and the others flied around me . Ewwww...
Strange dreams ....
I was awake few times . Every time I finished one dream , I was awake ...
Gonna go Bugis later , remembering my dream again .... I need Koi...
Aaaaa refresh my mind ...
Nightmare , bad dreams ...
Why Do I Blog ?
Well , after long time blogging , now I got one question inside my mind . Why do I blog ? Hmmm so many reasons actually , but I'm gonna tell you some of them only .
First , I need diary . Actually booklet diary is okay and cute , but it's not efficient . I have to write with a pen , then my hand can get tired easily . So , better use a blog . I can type , no need to use pen or pencil .
Second , blogging is easy . Not difficult . Even if you're sad and you want to scream , just scream here , it won't disturb anyone . See , now I'm giving you an example .
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... !!!
Do you see me disturbing you ?? No right ?
That's why , blogging is better place to 'throw' all your problems , than talking to a friend . Even if you cry here also okay . Nobody won't feel like being disturbed or annoyed .
Third , I often use laptop . Normally to do my homework or watch movie , but sometimes , I want to type , then type here la . Can share some experiences of mine also . Right ?
Fourth , blog is more private than FB . Ya , if I write my problem on Facebook status , my family , and my friends can read it , then they'll keep talking about my problem . Here is more private , I can write about everything easily . Just a few people know about my blog . So ya , it's safe .
Fifth , it's simple . Can just anyhow open my blog everywhere and write about what I want to say . I can open on my phone or my laptop . Not like if I have booklet as my diary , I need to find a place to sit and write , inconvenient .
Yeah , there are five reasons why I blog .
First , I need diary . Actually booklet diary is okay and cute , but it's not efficient . I have to write with a pen , then my hand can get tired easily . So , better use a blog . I can type , no need to use pen or pencil .
Second , blogging is easy . Not difficult . Even if you're sad and you want to scream , just scream here , it won't disturb anyone . See , now I'm giving you an example .
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... !!!
Do you see me disturbing you ?? No right ?
That's why , blogging is better place to 'throw' all your problems , than talking to a friend . Even if you cry here also okay . Nobody won't feel like being disturbed or annoyed .
Third , I often use laptop . Normally to do my homework or watch movie , but sometimes , I want to type , then type here la . Can share some experiences of mine also . Right ?
Fourth , blog is more private than FB . Ya , if I write my problem on Facebook status , my family , and my friends can read it , then they'll keep talking about my problem . Here is more private , I can write about everything easily . Just a few people know about my blog . So ya , it's safe .
Fifth , it's simple . Can just anyhow open my blog everywhere and write about what I want to say . I can open on my phone or my laptop . Not like if I have booklet as my diary , I need to find a place to sit and write , inconvenient .
Yeah , there are five reasons why I blog .
Looking for Something for My Grandma
Ya , today I went to Bugis again . Haha , my Mom got ask me to buy a cardigan for my grandma . This is what I hate from shopping alone without my Mom . She's kind of picky shopper you know ? Once she wanted the black cardigan , then when I asked the shopkeeper to get the black one L size , she wanted the grey one . After that , I asked for the grey one then she wanted the black one , after that she changed into the grey one again . Wah liao , so confusing sia... What you want ?
Then I met my bf there also . He went to eat dinner with his friend . So I joined him and his friend . Then after that we walked around Bugis Plus . I got drink two large cups of Koi Jasmine Green Tea . Hahaha... Then made me go to toilet after that .
We also went to OG , looking for clothes , maybe got something nice for my grandma . Then I found out that the price there was like "wow" . So ya , I didn't buy anything . After that we walked back home , he walked me till Little India Station , then I walked back alone to my hostel .
Really , blogging while talking to my Mom on phone is not nice . Later I typed what I'm talking with my Mom , not what I want to type .
Anyway , my Mom just told me a scary story , happened in my grandma's house . She said , few days ago , she prayed in my grandma's house using joss stick , to pray for my grandpa's spirit . Actually every time got visitors or guests visiting my grandparent's house from my Dad side , must pray first using joss stick for my grandpa's spirit , like say hello to him first or something . I also pray first every time I visit my grandparent's house . Then my mom said that the scary thing that happened was when she was praying , she hadn't prayed yet actually , just set the fire to the joss sticks , then she suddenly heard something from my grandpa's room . She said that it sounds like someone pull the chair inside the room . Clearly , she could hear the sound of the chair . Till she couldn't concentrate praying . After she put the joss sticks , she then came to the kitchen where my Dad's still cooking . She asked my Dad whether my grandma is already back home or no . Then my Dad said that actually nobody stay in my grandparent's house , my grandma is currently staying in my aunty's house . Whoa , so damn scary sia . So who pulled the chair ??
My Dad said it's probably my grandpa's spirit came visit his house . Besides , it's because nobody changed the food and drinks on the table where my grandparents used to pray for Guan Yim , Tian Gong and Tu Di Gong . Nobody take care of the room my grandparents used to pray , since nobody stayed there for few days . My grandpa passed away already , my grandma is with my aunty , so the house was empty for few days .
Lucky that didn't happen to me . If that happened to me , I think what would I do is like maybe my hand would have no energy anymore . Then dropped my joss sticks by accident . Then I fainted ... I never saw my grandpa appearing in front of me though . My mom said that if my grandpa spirit , then I'm lucky . Ya lucky and I would get heart attack also . Wah liao . It's not a movie , a real life , so must be scary .
Then I met my bf there also . He went to eat dinner with his friend . So I joined him and his friend . Then after that we walked around Bugis Plus . I got drink two large cups of Koi Jasmine Green Tea . Hahaha... Then made me go to toilet after that .
We also went to OG , looking for clothes , maybe got something nice for my grandma . Then I found out that the price there was like "wow" . So ya , I didn't buy anything . After that we walked back home , he walked me till Little India Station , then I walked back alone to my hostel .
Really , blogging while talking to my Mom on phone is not nice . Later I typed what I'm talking with my Mom , not what I want to type .
Anyway , my Mom just told me a scary story , happened in my grandma's house . She said , few days ago , she prayed in my grandma's house using joss stick , to pray for my grandpa's spirit . Actually every time got visitors or guests visiting my grandparent's house from my Dad side , must pray first using joss stick for my grandpa's spirit , like say hello to him first or something . I also pray first every time I visit my grandparent's house . Then my mom said that the scary thing that happened was when she was praying , she hadn't prayed yet actually , just set the fire to the joss sticks , then she suddenly heard something from my grandpa's room . She said that it sounds like someone pull the chair inside the room . Clearly , she could hear the sound of the chair . Till she couldn't concentrate praying . After she put the joss sticks , she then came to the kitchen where my Dad's still cooking . She asked my Dad whether my grandma is already back home or no . Then my Dad said that actually nobody stay in my grandparent's house , my grandma is currently staying in my aunty's house . Whoa , so damn scary sia . So who pulled the chair ??
My Dad said it's probably my grandpa's spirit came visit his house . Besides , it's because nobody changed the food and drinks on the table where my grandparents used to pray for Guan Yim , Tian Gong and Tu Di Gong . Nobody take care of the room my grandparents used to pray , since nobody stayed there for few days . My grandpa passed away already , my grandma is with my aunty , so the house was empty for few days .
Lucky that didn't happen to me . If that happened to me , I think what would I do is like maybe my hand would have no energy anymore . Then dropped my joss sticks by accident . Then I fainted ... I never saw my grandpa appearing in front of me though . My mom said that if my grandpa spirit , then I'm lucky . Ya lucky and I would get heart attack also . Wah liao . It's not a movie , a real life , so must be scary .
15 May 2013
Good Luck for My Bro for His Exams
My mom called me this morning to tell me that Jetstar called her and she didn't understand about what they said , since she's not English speaker . Then she told me to call Jetstar . Apparently , it's about my flight schedule changing . They delayed my flight for 10 minutes .
After that she told me about my brother's study report . She was so disappointed . She scolded my bro while she was on phone with me . Then I told her not to scold him too much . He's stubborn , I know that . She said that he got five fail . Hmmm , for me , that's normal , since in my school 75 is the limit of fail , below 75 , you're failed . You need to get 75 and above to pass .
Well , I just can say good luck and do better for your exams , my beloved didi . It's for your future also ...
My mom also asked me whether I can meet up with my bf between May 27th to May 31st . She said that she wants to give something for him and his family . Still not sure what she wants to give though .
She got talk about foods also , that made me hungry after that when I was in Bugis then ate dinner together with my bf and his friend . She said that she wants to cook my favorite foods when I'm in Malang . Ya ... a lots of my favorite foods . Aaaaaaa I'm hungry !!
Anyway , dunno why now I'm a bit dizzy , I hope I dun catch a cold ...
After that she told me about my brother's study report . She was so disappointed . She scolded my bro while she was on phone with me . Then I told her not to scold him too much . He's stubborn , I know that . She said that he got five fail . Hmmm , for me , that's normal , since in my school 75 is the limit of fail , below 75 , you're failed . You need to get 75 and above to pass .
Well , I just can say good luck and do better for your exams , my beloved didi . It's for your future also ...
My mom also asked me whether I can meet up with my bf between May 27th to May 31st . She said that she wants to give something for him and his family . Still not sure what she wants to give though .
She got talk about foods also , that made me hungry after that when I was in Bugis then ate dinner together with my bf and his friend . She said that she wants to cook my favorite foods when I'm in Malang . Ya ... a lots of my favorite foods . Aaaaaaa I'm hungry !!
Anyway , dunno why now I'm a bit dizzy , I hope I dun catch a cold ...
14 May 2013
Mum Sharing Her Love Story with Dad
I talked to my Mom this afternoon by phone when I was outside . I asked her about how she met Dad for the first time . She said that at that time , her mom already friends with my Dad's mom . Then my Dad's mom , often visited her mom for buying coffee . Her mom sold coffee at that time to earn money . Then , her mom introduced her to my Dad . My Dad is 5 years older than my Mom . He worked in a metal factory near my Mom's house at that time . That's why he came visit my Mom everyday , talked on phone , and even sometimes took a rest in my Mom's house and took a bath there after work . They dated for few years then my mom got married to him when she was 24 , and my Dad was 29 .
Then she talked about my brother . She said that my brother never studied , too lazy , although it's nearly his exams . She said that she gave up already about asking my brother to go study .
"Everyday play game only , never study , I don't understand also , he plays game and turn on TV at the same time , how come watch movie and play game at the same time ??" she said .
Then I told her ,"It's okay , Mom , normally guys are like that . Especially teenage boys . Ya , all guys love game , even till they're old also still play game , for easy example , Dad . He plays game although he's almost 49 ... If not game then TV , game again , TV again , game again , and forever it will be ... so don't worry , hahaha "
Then , hearing about my talking about games , my bro said ," See , even jie jie understand about this , Mama should be like jie jie also , so nice you know ??"
My mom said ,"No way , if I became like your jie jie , later you would quit school ! You better stop playing game and go study !"
Hahaha... to me , I think once you're addicted to game , forever you'll stuck there , no one can stop you , but your self .
Missing my Mom's cooking ...
Yeah , five more days and I'm back in Malang ...
Then she talked about my brother . She said that my brother never studied , too lazy , although it's nearly his exams . She said that she gave up already about asking my brother to go study .
"Everyday play game only , never study , I don't understand also , he plays game and turn on TV at the same time , how come watch movie and play game at the same time ??" she said .
Then I told her ,"It's okay , Mom , normally guys are like that . Especially teenage boys . Ya , all guys love game , even till they're old also still play game , for easy example , Dad . He plays game although he's almost 49 ... If not game then TV , game again , TV again , game again , and forever it will be ... so don't worry , hahaha "
Then , hearing about my talking about games , my bro said ," See , even jie jie understand about this , Mama should be like jie jie also , so nice you know ??"
My mom said ,"No way , if I became like your jie jie , later you would quit school ! You better stop playing game and go study !"
Hahaha... to me , I think once you're addicted to game , forever you'll stuck there , no one can stop you , but your self .
Missing my Mom's cooking ...
Yeah , five more days and I'm back in Malang ...
13 May 2013
Enchanted to Meet You
Hmmm , in this post , I'm gonna post about my someone special , a.k.a my bf . Ya , for my best friends and my blog readers , who want to know about this thing for so long already , ya I'm posting it now . Haha , so you can read .
Well , actually the most frequently asked question from my best friends is that how I met my bf . Well , actually we met online , from a chatting app called "Skout" . We started chatting on February 24th , 2013 . I still remember what he first asked about me . It's about my really long name . Josephine Vania Kartika Chandra . He asked me how I'm gonna write my name on my exam . Hahaha , funny question . Ya , long name , but every exam I just need to write Vania Kartika Chandra though . Haha ... Josephine is my baptist name , but some people call me Josephine , it's easier to remember . Actually can call me using my Chinese name also , Zhang Rong Li , just like how my family calls me .
Okay , next . After we talked a lot on Skout , I asked him whether he has What's app or any other app , since Skout is often being laggy . Then we exchanged Line ID and we continued to chat trough Line . At first , I never take my conversation with him as a serious action . Since I met a lots of "just play play" guys on Skout . At first I thought that he also played played only . Besides , I liked someone else that time . So , ya , I never thought that time , that he would be so important to me , just like now , he's definitely important part of my life now . Since I first time using Skout , I already met some guys before I met him . Ya , some guys whom I met before him were like... uhmmm what to say ? I think... I can say that they're jerks . Ya , they just wanted to play with girls . Most of them just want sex . Ya , must be careful about this . That's why I didn't anyhow meet guys . See first how they behave on chatting . Sometimes , they can talk dirty on chat , so they might be really a 'dirty' person , but some of them , talk so nice on chat , but when I met them , I never want to meet them again , and never want to talk to them again . It depends on my intuition also actually . I always have strong feeling about everything , normally .
So ya , at that time , when I liked someone else , he kept texting me via line . At that time , I always wished that every time I got the ringtone from my phone , I wished that it's from the guy whom I liked at that time , but when I checked it , ya , it's from him . Then I replied . I kept hoping on the guy that I liked at that time , till I did realize one thing . I realized that this guy , who's currently my bf , really cared about me . He kept texting me at that time . Asking me about my day , my school , etc . I asked me self that time ,"OMG , Josephine , are you stupid ? Blind ? Deaf ? F*cking idiot or what ? See , got this guy cares about you , why you still hoping on that bastard ??" So then ya , I stopped hoping on that guy , and tried to know more about this guy . I even still remember , at that time , when I was still having a crush on that bastard , and this guy asked me "Do you think I'm boring ?" I answered "Kinda"
Lol , now the answer will be totally different . He's not a boring person at all . I was wrong at that time . He's my everything , important part of my life . Lol .
After chatting on Line for a few weeks , then I asked him whether he has What's app , and he said he has . So then we exchanged number , and we continued chatting through What's app . Few days after chatting through What's app . He asked me whether I want to meet up or no . Then I agreed to meet up . I was curious about him . At first I thought he's a fake profile since his DP was blur . Then so after church , we met in Bugis Plus . That was Saturday . Then hmmm first impression when I met him . Waa looks like Shinichi Kudo . So then we talked while waiting for the dinner at Ramen Champion , Bugis Plus . I like his reaction towards my jokes . The way he laughed , so funny . Then I started thinking that this guy is different from other guys . There are few things that make him different from the other guys . He respects me . Got one guy before I met him , ya , he's a pervert I guess , first time meeting already held hands , hugged me , what the hell . Even tried to kiss me and touch me . Lucky I never slapped him or reported him to police for a sexual harassment case . That guy was over confident also , really regret meeting that kind of guy .
Okay , so back to topic . This guy also doesn't talk too much . He's more chatty on text messages . I'm the opposite , I'm more chatty when I'm talking right in front of him , not by text messages .
After dinner , then we watched a movie , the title is "Jack and the Giant Slayer" .
I was enchanted to meet him .
Since the first meeting , I already had different feeling towards him . I mean I treat him differently from the way I treat other guys . After meeting for a few more times after the first meeting , the feeling towards him started growing more and more each day . I always waited for him to text me first . Ya , that's my style , no texting guy first . Till one day , he didn't text me at all and I was so damn sad . I started thinking that maybe he didn't like me . Till then he texted me at 12.00 AM plus after that day . I was so damn happy . Hahaha .
One day , he asked me whether I had a crush on a guy at that time , and I said yes . He kept asking me about the guy I had a crush on at that time almost every day . I didn't tell him that the guy I had a crush on was him though .
I did blogging also at that time and never realized that he read my blog daily . Till one day he told me that he knew already that the guy I had a crush on was him .
Then one day after we went out and we were in his car , he talked about his dream . Ya that creepy dream that I always want to throw it away from my mind but never been successful . He then asked me whether I still want to be his gf after knowing about that dream . Then I said yes .
So ya , then we started our relationship since April 7th , 2013 , 12.35 AM .
We've been together like for one month plus . 1 month and 1 week . Lol
I love you <3 xoxo
Well , actually the most frequently asked question from my best friends is that how I met my bf . Well , actually we met online , from a chatting app called "Skout" . We started chatting on February 24th , 2013 . I still remember what he first asked about me . It's about my really long name . Josephine Vania Kartika Chandra . He asked me how I'm gonna write my name on my exam . Hahaha , funny question . Ya , long name , but every exam I just need to write Vania Kartika Chandra though . Haha ... Josephine is my baptist name , but some people call me Josephine , it's easier to remember . Actually can call me using my Chinese name also , Zhang Rong Li , just like how my family calls me .
Okay , next . After we talked a lot on Skout , I asked him whether he has What's app or any other app , since Skout is often being laggy . Then we exchanged Line ID and we continued to chat trough Line . At first , I never take my conversation with him as a serious action . Since I met a lots of "just play play" guys on Skout . At first I thought that he also played played only . Besides , I liked someone else that time . So , ya , I never thought that time , that he would be so important to me , just like now , he's definitely important part of my life now . Since I first time using Skout , I already met some guys before I met him . Ya , some guys whom I met before him were like... uhmmm what to say ? I think... I can say that they're jerks . Ya , they just wanted to play with girls . Most of them just want sex . Ya , must be careful about this . That's why I didn't anyhow meet guys . See first how they behave on chatting . Sometimes , they can talk dirty on chat , so they might be really a 'dirty' person , but some of them , talk so nice on chat , but when I met them , I never want to meet them again , and never want to talk to them again . It depends on my intuition also actually . I always have strong feeling about everything , normally .
So ya , at that time , when I liked someone else , he kept texting me via line . At that time , I always wished that every time I got the ringtone from my phone , I wished that it's from the guy whom I liked at that time , but when I checked it , ya , it's from him . Then I replied . I kept hoping on the guy that I liked at that time , till I did realize one thing . I realized that this guy , who's currently my bf , really cared about me . He kept texting me at that time . Asking me about my day , my school , etc . I asked me self that time ,"OMG , Josephine , are you stupid ? Blind ? Deaf ? F*cking idiot or what ? See , got this guy cares about you , why you still hoping on that bastard ??" So then ya , I stopped hoping on that guy , and tried to know more about this guy . I even still remember , at that time , when I was still having a crush on that bastard , and this guy asked me "Do you think I'm boring ?" I answered "Kinda"
Lol , now the answer will be totally different . He's not a boring person at all . I was wrong at that time . He's my everything , important part of my life . Lol .
After chatting on Line for a few weeks , then I asked him whether he has What's app , and he said he has . So then we exchanged number , and we continued chatting through What's app . Few days after chatting through What's app . He asked me whether I want to meet up or no . Then I agreed to meet up . I was curious about him . At first I thought he's a fake profile since his DP was blur . Then so after church , we met in Bugis Plus . That was Saturday . Then hmmm first impression when I met him . Waa looks like Shinichi Kudo . So then we talked while waiting for the dinner at Ramen Champion , Bugis Plus . I like his reaction towards my jokes . The way he laughed , so funny . Then I started thinking that this guy is different from other guys . There are few things that make him different from the other guys . He respects me . Got one guy before I met him , ya , he's a pervert I guess , first time meeting already held hands , hugged me , what the hell . Even tried to kiss me and touch me . Lucky I never slapped him or reported him to police for a sexual harassment case . That guy was over confident also , really regret meeting that kind of guy .
Okay , so back to topic . This guy also doesn't talk too much . He's more chatty on text messages . I'm the opposite , I'm more chatty when I'm talking right in front of him , not by text messages .
After dinner , then we watched a movie , the title is "Jack and the Giant Slayer" .
I was enchanted to meet him .
Since the first meeting , I already had different feeling towards him . I mean I treat him differently from the way I treat other guys . After meeting for a few more times after the first meeting , the feeling towards him started growing more and more each day . I always waited for him to text me first . Ya , that's my style , no texting guy first . Till one day , he didn't text me at all and I was so damn sad . I started thinking that maybe he didn't like me . Till then he texted me at 12.00 AM plus after that day . I was so damn happy . Hahaha .
One day , he asked me whether I had a crush on a guy at that time , and I said yes . He kept asking me about the guy I had a crush on at that time almost every day . I didn't tell him that the guy I had a crush on was him though .
I did blogging also at that time and never realized that he read my blog daily . Till one day he told me that he knew already that the guy I had a crush on was him .
Then one day after we went out and we were in his car , he talked about his dream . Ya that creepy dream that I always want to throw it away from my mind but never been successful . He then asked me whether I still want to be his gf after knowing about that dream . Then I said yes .
So ya , then we started our relationship since April 7th , 2013 , 12.35 AM .
We've been together like for one month plus . 1 month and 1 week . Lol
I love you <3 xoxo
Just Talked to the Vietnamese Girl
Hmmm.... ya , just now , I met that girl again accidentally . No choice , then talked lor .
So then I talked to her about a lots of things .
First , she talked about her crush . She said that she never guessed that that guy keeps changing girl . Then I told her that because he's still young and of course la won't take a relationship as a serious action . Then she insisted that this guy is nice , or something , and the thing that she likes the most from this guy is that he's still a virgin . Then I told her that it's because he's still 17 la , he can still change . Still a kid , later see whether he can still be a nice guy when he's 24 plus . Aiyoh , looking for a serious relationship , why hoping it from a 17 year old guy ? Normally guys on that age will just play play only la , still young mah...
Then she talked about a girl in my school , just call her Amy for simple , she's from Jakarta . I know that her parents are rich , ya since Jakarta people are normally rich , and she's so pampered . To me , she's so lucky , pretty , rich , have so many guys adore her , and so pampered . One thing that I can't stand from her , why she keeps saying that she's so unlucky , her parents never sent her money , and she wants to kill her self . That's what the Viet girl said about her . Wah liao , never sent her money but how can she often go shopping ? Money fall down from sky ah ? Then the Viet girl also said that Amy often go clubbing , and once , after clubbing and she was drunk , she was going somewhere with a guy she just met once only in the club and the guy touched her below part , and she didn't realize what the guy did with it . She didn't know whether the guy put his "thing" inside there or no . The Viet girl only knew that the next day she came to her and cried in front of her saying that she regret the thing and wanted to kill her self . The Viet girl said "I dunno whether she loose her virginity but she didn't wanna tell me or just because she never got guy touch it before ... But she said that her 'thing' is painful after that "
I replied ,"Maybe the guy didn't put his 'thing' inside , just fingers only , or I dunno also , I never experienced that stuff before , so I never know ..."
Then the Viet girl , I dunno why , every time she talked to me always got this topic , virginity . She keeps lecturing me to keep my virginity , and blah blah blah . Even just now she asked me also whether I'm still virgin or no . Omg , really , this girl is so kay poh . She said she will always maintain her virginity till marriage . Then when I told her ,"I can't promise that I will keep my virginity till marriage ... "
I haven't finished my sentence and she already shocked a while and then gave me that 'naughty' look , she asked me ,"Oh... I know , you can't wait to do with your bf right ??"
Wah liao , you think I can easily loose control huh ? Then I continued my sentence ,"Well , listen first ... I can't promise that I will keep that virginity till I'm married , but I can promise that I will try my best to keep it till I'm married , nothing is impossible you know ? Cause sometimes , we can just anyhow loose control , and ya we're just human , sometimes we loose control , but not every time la ... and anyway , just do everything when you're ready , to get maximum result , if not , later not maximum result you get , but a regret . Ya , a regret is always comes late , as always..."
Then she was like ... okay I got it . Ya , I think she should stop bothering about other people's life . It's their life , not yours . Care about other people's life is okay , but not care too much . Anything that is too much has never been good . She even getting stressed because of caring too much about Amy's life . Omg , just leave her la ...
She said that she's afraid what if one day she heard that Amy is pregnant and then go suicide .
Aiyoh... it's her problem , you know ? You just need to tell her that she must be careful , and take care of her self . I think that's enough la . If after that she keeps danger her life , then ya no choice , it's her problem . The important thing is that you can take care of your self .
I don't mean to say that caring for best friend is not important . Well , I care about my best friends , but I don't care too much . I just need to maybe remind them if they want to do something dangerous for their life , but the thing about they want to do it or no is their decision , not mine . So , ya actually the only thing that can control your life is your self . Not your family , not your best friend , not your lover , no one else but your self . Future is on your hand . Correct or not ?
Hmmm I still remember , last time , she cared too much about me . Ya , she asked a lot about my life , just like my mother . She asked me about my school , my family , my best friends , and even about my boyfriend also . She also thought that all Indonesian girls are like Amy , go clubbing , rich , so pampered . Then I told her that not all Indonesian girls are so lucky like her . Amy's expenses per month is SGD 1000 plus . Compare it with mine , my expenses every month is around SGD 300- 500 only never exceed that limit . Unless I have a lots of urgent things or health problem and need to be hospitalized , that's a different case . If I spent SGD 1000 plus per month , my parents would definitely 'kill' me . They would sent me back to Indonesia , and then I would go suicide .
I told that Viet girl that it's because Amy is from Jakarta , and I'm from Malang . Jakarta is a big city , it's the capital city of Indonesia , mine is just a small city that a lots of my local people here dunno where it is , it's on East Java . Amy's lifestyle of course is different from mine . She's born and raised in a rich family . I think if she's drunk or something , her parents are still okay with that . My parents would kill me if they caught me drunk . Besides , I don't drink . I don't like alcoholic drink .
Then the last thing she talked about was about money . She said that Amy never appreciate money . She likes wasting money . Then the Viet girl said that for her , SGD 1 is already expensive . Well same here , in my hometown , using SGD 1.00 , you can eat once till you're full . Movie also so cheap , non weekend is around SGD 2.00 , and weekend is around SGD 3.00 to SGD 4.00 only . It's different from Jakarta . I think there , the price is about the same with the price in Singapore . Since it's the capital city of Indonesia .
So then I talked to her about a lots of things .
First , she talked about her crush . She said that she never guessed that that guy keeps changing girl . Then I told her that because he's still young and of course la won't take a relationship as a serious action . Then she insisted that this guy is nice , or something , and the thing that she likes the most from this guy is that he's still a virgin . Then I told her that it's because he's still 17 la , he can still change . Still a kid , later see whether he can still be a nice guy when he's 24 plus . Aiyoh , looking for a serious relationship , why hoping it from a 17 year old guy ? Normally guys on that age will just play play only la , still young mah...
Then she talked about a girl in my school , just call her Amy for simple , she's from Jakarta . I know that her parents are rich , ya since Jakarta people are normally rich , and she's so pampered . To me , she's so lucky , pretty , rich , have so many guys adore her , and so pampered . One thing that I can't stand from her , why she keeps saying that she's so unlucky , her parents never sent her money , and she wants to kill her self . That's what the Viet girl said about her . Wah liao , never sent her money but how can she often go shopping ? Money fall down from sky ah ? Then the Viet girl also said that Amy often go clubbing , and once , after clubbing and she was drunk , she was going somewhere with a guy she just met once only in the club and the guy touched her below part , and she didn't realize what the guy did with it . She didn't know whether the guy put his "thing" inside there or no . The Viet girl only knew that the next day she came to her and cried in front of her saying that she regret the thing and wanted to kill her self . The Viet girl said "I dunno whether she loose her virginity but she didn't wanna tell me or just because she never got guy touch it before ... But she said that her 'thing' is painful after that "
I replied ,"Maybe the guy didn't put his 'thing' inside , just fingers only , or I dunno also , I never experienced that stuff before , so I never know ..."
Then the Viet girl , I dunno why , every time she talked to me always got this topic , virginity . She keeps lecturing me to keep my virginity , and blah blah blah . Even just now she asked me also whether I'm still virgin or no . Omg , really , this girl is so kay poh . She said she will always maintain her virginity till marriage . Then when I told her ,"I can't promise that I will keep my virginity till marriage ... "
I haven't finished my sentence and she already shocked a while and then gave me that 'naughty' look , she asked me ,"Oh... I know , you can't wait to do with your bf right ??"
Wah liao , you think I can easily loose control huh ? Then I continued my sentence ,"Well , listen first ... I can't promise that I will keep that virginity till I'm married , but I can promise that I will try my best to keep it till I'm married , nothing is impossible you know ? Cause sometimes , we can just anyhow loose control , and ya we're just human , sometimes we loose control , but not every time la ... and anyway , just do everything when you're ready , to get maximum result , if not , later not maximum result you get , but a regret . Ya , a regret is always comes late , as always..."
Then she was like ... okay I got it . Ya , I think she should stop bothering about other people's life . It's their life , not yours . Care about other people's life is okay , but not care too much . Anything that is too much has never been good . She even getting stressed because of caring too much about Amy's life . Omg , just leave her la ...
She said that she's afraid what if one day she heard that Amy is pregnant and then go suicide .
Aiyoh... it's her problem , you know ? You just need to tell her that she must be careful , and take care of her self . I think that's enough la . If after that she keeps danger her life , then ya no choice , it's her problem . The important thing is that you can take care of your self .
I don't mean to say that caring for best friend is not important . Well , I care about my best friends , but I don't care too much . I just need to maybe remind them if they want to do something dangerous for their life , but the thing about they want to do it or no is their decision , not mine . So , ya actually the only thing that can control your life is your self . Not your family , not your best friend , not your lover , no one else but your self . Future is on your hand . Correct or not ?
Hmmm I still remember , last time , she cared too much about me . Ya , she asked a lot about my life , just like my mother . She asked me about my school , my family , my best friends , and even about my boyfriend also . She also thought that all Indonesian girls are like Amy , go clubbing , rich , so pampered . Then I told her that not all Indonesian girls are so lucky like her . Amy's expenses per month is SGD 1000 plus . Compare it with mine , my expenses every month is around SGD 300- 500 only never exceed that limit . Unless I have a lots of urgent things or health problem and need to be hospitalized , that's a different case . If I spent SGD 1000 plus per month , my parents would definitely 'kill' me . They would sent me back to Indonesia , and then I would go suicide .
I told that Viet girl that it's because Amy is from Jakarta , and I'm from Malang . Jakarta is a big city , it's the capital city of Indonesia , mine is just a small city that a lots of my local people here dunno where it is , it's on East Java . Amy's lifestyle of course is different from mine . She's born and raised in a rich family . I think if she's drunk or something , her parents are still okay with that . My parents would kill me if they caught me drunk . Besides , I don't drink . I don't like alcoholic drink .
Then the last thing she talked about was about money . She said that Amy never appreciate money . She likes wasting money . Then the Viet girl said that for her , SGD 1 is already expensive . Well same here , in my hometown , using SGD 1.00 , you can eat once till you're full . Movie also so cheap , non weekend is around SGD 2.00 , and weekend is around SGD 3.00 to SGD 4.00 only . It's different from Jakarta . I think there , the price is about the same with the price in Singapore . Since it's the capital city of Indonesia .
You Got Me
You're stuck on my and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend although I try to hide
I like you , I like you
I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can't hardly breathe
You got me , yeah
you got me
The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
It knocks me off my feet
Oh , I just can't get enough
How much do I need to fill me up ?
It feels so good , it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of
I give up , I give in , I let go , let's begin
coz no matter what I do
Oh , my heart is filled with you
I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin' each day in this life without you , without you
One look from you , I know you understand
This mess we're in , you know it's just so out of hand
Oh , I just can't get enough
How much do I need to fill me up ?
It feels so good , it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of
I give up , I give in , I let go , let's begin
coz no matter what I do
Oh , my heart is filled with you
I hope we always feel this way (I know we will)
And in my heart I know that you will always stay
I can't pretend although I try to hide
I like you , I like you
I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can't hardly breathe
You got me , yeah
you got me
The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
It knocks me off my feet
Oh , I just can't get enough
How much do I need to fill me up ?
It feels so good , it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of
I give up , I give in , I let go , let's begin
coz no matter what I do
Oh , my heart is filled with you
I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin' each day in this life without you , without you
One look from you , I know you understand
This mess we're in , you know it's just so out of hand
Oh , I just can't get enough
How much do I need to fill me up ?
It feels so good , it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of
I give up , I give in , I let go , let's begin
coz no matter what I do
Oh , my heart is filled with you
I hope we always feel this way (I know we will)
And in my heart I know that you will always stay
Bugis Plus Accident
This afternoon I went to Bugis Plus to buy present for my Dad . Ya , then my Mom called me while I was queuing for Koi . Ya , my lovely Jasmine Green Tea , 70% sugar level , no pearl no milk , large , as always . Then I talked to my Mom for like one hour straight . While talking , I kept laughing , since she talked about something funny . I didn't realize that while I was laughing , I accidentally stared at two (perverted) guy . OMG , they thought I was laughing at them . What the hell...
They even waved at me . Aaaaaaa I was so damn embarrassed then I ran away from that place .
What a crazy accident . Aaarrrrgghhhhhhhhhh , I'm so damn embarrassed . Please hor , I don't know them and I don't mean to laugh at them or smile at them !!!
Okay , that was a bad thing , but not a bad thing happened to me . Good thing was happened also . I met my bf there . He was going to Bugis Junction with his friend . Ya then I was like yay I met him again .
Then I joined him and his friend eating dinner , I didn't eat though . Not hungry ...
Then after ate , we bought Koi . I got my second cup for Koi . Haha ... (that made me went to toilet straight after I reached hostel) .
Then we walked around first , after that he bought dessert for his mom . Then , we walked together and separated after he reached his HDB , I walked alone to hostel .
Ya , what a day... Haha
Anyway , I got one sweat shirt with blue and black stripes for my Dad from Uniqlo .
They even waved at me . Aaaaaaa I was so damn embarrassed then I ran away from that place .
What a crazy accident . Aaarrrrgghhhhhhhhhh , I'm so damn embarrassed . Please hor , I don't know them and I don't mean to laugh at them or smile at them !!!
Okay , that was a bad thing , but not a bad thing happened to me . Good thing was happened also . I met my bf there . He was going to Bugis Junction with his friend . Ya then I was like yay I met him again .
Then I joined him and his friend eating dinner , I didn't eat though . Not hungry ...
Then after ate , we bought Koi . I got my second cup for Koi . Haha ... (that made me went to toilet straight after I reached hostel) .
Then we walked around first , after that he bought dessert for his mom . Then , we walked together and separated after he reached his HDB , I walked alone to hostel .
Ya , what a day... Haha
Anyway , I got one sweat shirt with blue and black stripes for my Dad from Uniqlo .
Strange Dream
Hmmm anyway , when I was sleeping today in the early morning , I had strange dream . Someone I dunno who , kissed me . I couldn't see clearly the person who kissed me . I hope it's not :
1. My bf suddenly sneaked into my room and kissed me in the morning (later kena scold by the security )
2. My roommate (nooooooooooooo) who accidentally or purposely (scary) kissed me while I was sleeping .
3. Someone throw something soft and hit my lips while I was sleeping (Ya , last time my schoolmate in secondary school , got a dream that someone kissed him , but actually it's my another friend threw slipper and hit his lips , hahaha)
Anyway , I dunno it's a coincidence or my mom called my bf's mom (this one sounds impossible) , she also cooked curry . Wah , same as what my bf's mom did . My mom even asked me "You want to eat curry ? It's not spicy , I can guarantee you "
Then I said "Yes , please send it to Singapore ASAP "
Lol , crazy , but every time I'm going back to Malang , she always cooks a lot and asks me to eat eat eat . She'll cook my favorite foods , and of course non spicy . Then she'll ask me to clean my house (ya , back to last activity , since I don't have maid , so I'm the maid ) . Oh I'm sure she'll force me to learn cooking . Yeah , she said girl's work . So , means cooking and cleaning are girl's works . Also finally I can sleep on my big bed , yeah , so comfy . Confirm wake up late everyday , and I won't set alarm , lol .
Anyway , actually my Mom asked me to go out buy present for my Dad today , but dunno why so lazy to go out , my room is so comfy , hahaha . Outside is so hot , inside here is so cool . lol
Hmmm ok la , after this then go out . Maybe go Bugis or Plaza Singapura , as usual . Oh maybe walk to Somerset and Orchard also can .
1. My bf suddenly sneaked into my room and kissed me in the morning (later kena scold by the security )
2. My roommate (nooooooooooooo) who accidentally or purposely (scary) kissed me while I was sleeping .
3. Someone throw something soft and hit my lips while I was sleeping (Ya , last time my schoolmate in secondary school , got a dream that someone kissed him , but actually it's my another friend threw slipper and hit his lips , hahaha)
Anyway , I dunno it's a coincidence or my mom called my bf's mom (this one sounds impossible) , she also cooked curry . Wah , same as what my bf's mom did . My mom even asked me "You want to eat curry ? It's not spicy , I can guarantee you "
Then I said "Yes , please send it to Singapore ASAP "
Lol , crazy , but every time I'm going back to Malang , she always cooks a lot and asks me to eat eat eat . She'll cook my favorite foods , and of course non spicy . Then she'll ask me to clean my house (ya , back to last activity , since I don't have maid , so I'm the maid ) . Oh I'm sure she'll force me to learn cooking . Yeah , she said girl's work . So , means cooking and cleaning are girl's works . Also finally I can sleep on my big bed , yeah , so comfy . Confirm wake up late everyday , and I won't set alarm , lol .
Anyway , actually my Mom asked me to go out buy present for my Dad today , but dunno why so lazy to go out , my room is so comfy , hahaha . Outside is so hot , inside here is so cool . lol
Hmmm ok la , after this then go out . Maybe go Bugis or Plaza Singapura , as usual . Oh maybe walk to Somerset and Orchard also can .
12 May 2013
One Week Before I'm Going Back to Malang
Yuppp , one week before I'm going back to my hometown , Malang - East Java , Indonesia . Hmmm haven't packed anything yet , and must go buy present for my Dad . Besides , I must go buy something for my grandma . Hmmm... actually too lazy to go out . I'm stick to my bed . Ya , once I sleep , during holiday , I can sleep till 5 PM . Wow ... amazing sleeper . Yes , I am . Lol
Lucky , during school never been like this , later drop out from NAFA , I'm dead .
Well , two days ago , on Saturday , I went to Sentosa with him . Waaa , so nice sia , sitting on the beach . Actually wanna watch sunset , but the sky is cloudy , so couldn't really see sunset . Then we watched movie at Vivo city after that . The title is "Identity Thief" , it's a comedy , but still , I think Scary Movie 5 is funnier . After that , ya , as usual , my Mom will be asking me a lot about my dating ... She got ask "You two hold hands ?" Of course la ... if not hold hands , that's not a relationship , but foreveraloneship , or friendzone . So strange if just friends then already hold hands , hmmmm some girls can slap you if you do that and you're a guy . I'm not that "can slap" girl though .After that , she asked also "You two hug ?" I said "Ya..." and she was surprised . She said ,"Hey , you have just recently been together and already hug ?" Oh no , please don't say wait till marriage then hug . I'll be forever alone girl later . OMG , please la... who will not hug when you're in a relationship in these days ?? Ya , maybe in her era , she just could hold hands (secretly hold hands) with my Dad when she's in relationship . Hmmmm... "impressive" huh ? If I applied that during relationship in this era , I would have been dumped immediately by my bf . Say good bye to relationship and see you next century .
No , please , I'm not that girl that is so damn conservative . She doesn't know that I kissed already , and I think she doesn't need to know about this . It's my life mah . Not all part of my life can be shared with everyone . I'm still young and need a lots of experiences . Don't worry , Mom . It doesn't mean that I will loose control and loose everything . I'm still your good girl . Haha... I still know limit , and know how to keep that limit still there . I'm almost 19 and know how to take care of my self . No need to worry too much about me .
Anyway , any idea of birthday present for a man ? So confusing sia...
Lucky , during school never been like this , later drop out from NAFA , I'm dead .
Well , two days ago , on Saturday , I went to Sentosa with him . Waaa , so nice sia , sitting on the beach . Actually wanna watch sunset , but the sky is cloudy , so couldn't really see sunset . Then we watched movie at Vivo city after that . The title is "Identity Thief" , it's a comedy , but still , I think Scary Movie 5 is funnier . After that , ya , as usual , my Mom will be asking me a lot about my dating ... She got ask "You two hold hands ?" Of course la ... if not hold hands , that's not a relationship , but foreveraloneship , or friendzone . So strange if just friends then already hold hands , hmmmm some girls can slap you if you do that and you're a guy . I'm not that "can slap" girl though .After that , she asked also "You two hug ?" I said "Ya..." and she was surprised . She said ,"Hey , you have just recently been together and already hug ?" Oh no , please don't say wait till marriage then hug . I'll be forever alone girl later . OMG , please la... who will not hug when you're in a relationship in these days ?? Ya , maybe in her era , she just could hold hands (secretly hold hands) with my Dad when she's in relationship . Hmmmm... "impressive" huh ? If I applied that during relationship in this era , I would have been dumped immediately by my bf . Say good bye to relationship and see you next century .
No , please , I'm not that girl that is so damn conservative . She doesn't know that I kissed already , and I think she doesn't need to know about this . It's my life mah . Not all part of my life can be shared with everyone . I'm still young and need a lots of experiences . Don't worry , Mom . It doesn't mean that I will loose control and loose everything . I'm still your good girl . Haha... I still know limit , and know how to keep that limit still there . I'm almost 19 and know how to take care of my self . No need to worry too much about me .
Anyway , any idea of birthday present for a man ? So confusing sia...
9 May 2013
Just Talked to My Mom on Phone
Almost everyday I talked to my Mom on phone , but what's app her everyday . Sounds like I'm a mommy's girl . Hahaha ... but it's a fact that a mother always wants her daughter to forever be her baby . Always contacts her everyday , so that she won't be worried a lot about us .
This afternoon she called me and I was still sleeping . Her call woke me up . Then she knew already also that I just woke up . She told me that she sent the money already , yay !!! Now I have SGD 150 , to survive till May 20th .
Then she told me also that my grandma already checked out from hospital and currently staying with my uncle (my Dad's older brother) , she needs someone to take care of her , so she stays there . My mom told me that actually my grandma really wants to stay with her daughter , better than staying in her son's house . My mom said that every mother prefer her daughter to take care of her , better than asking her son to take care of her . She said because the daughter must be more patience of taking care of her . She even asked me ,"Can I one day staying in your house when I'm sick , when one day you're married already ?" Then I was like why you're talking about being old and sickness ? But then I told her that she can come whenever she wants .
She also said that my grandma might stay in my house also and will sleep in my room , since it's the only empty room in my house . Then I asked her "What if she stays there when I'm home already ?"
My mom said ,"It's okay , can sleep with you lor ..."
Then I was so happy , finally I have roommate , in my house , yay ! I love my grandma . She's really kind . I don't understand why her daughters never care of her , don't want to accept her in their house ? Hmmmm so strange... Lucky she got 4 sons and willing to take care of her .
After that , she talked about my brother . She said ,"Hey , your brother fought with his ex yesterday !"
I was quite surprised . Then I asked her ,"Which ex ?"
"That girl la , his classmate , Vina , who else ??"
Oh... that girl huh... Hmmm I knew her , she got added me on FB before just to get some info about my brother then she removed me . I think they both always stuck in this cycle :
friends - relationship - break up - stranger - friends - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up .... (the next please type by yourself , I'm tired , I guess you know what's next right ?)
Ya... and forever it will be like that ...
Do you know how my brother asks a girl to be his girlfriend ? Quite simple .
Question : Do you want to be my gf ?
Answer : (must be) Yes / No
If you say yes , means ya , you want to be his gf .
If you say no , doesn't mean friendzone or just be friends or something , but enemy . Means don't talk to him anymore . Stranger . That's all .
So it's either be his gf or his enemy .
When he told me about this , I told him "Hmmm no wonder..."
"No wonder what ??"
"No wonder you never have long time relationship ..."
"Why ??"
"Because of the way you ask her la ! Wah liao , don't be so harsh to girl , later no girl wants you , how ? Talk softly , help her carry her bags , or books , or walk her to her house , are they difficult ?? Just do that to her , then see whether you can win her heart or no ... Easy right ?"
Then he said "What ??? No way ! I won't do that before she becomes my gf "
I was like ... okay... whatever ...
I think it's because he's still a kid la ... Dun understand about how to handle this kind of thing .
Hmmm really , sometimes , I want an older brother . I mean older brother , biological older brother . So then I dun need to be the eldest child anymore , then I know how it feels to be younger sister , then I can disturb him everyday . Then my younger brother can learn from my older brother also . I also want older sister , then I can learn from her la . Guess it's because my Mom only wants two children . Why not three or four ?
She said "Two children already made me headache ... Three or four children , hmmm I dunno , speechless..."
Haha , but I think now no headache anymore right ? Lol
This afternoon she called me and I was still sleeping . Her call woke me up . Then she knew already also that I just woke up . She told me that she sent the money already , yay !!! Now I have SGD 150 , to survive till May 20th .
Then she told me also that my grandma already checked out from hospital and currently staying with my uncle (my Dad's older brother) , she needs someone to take care of her , so she stays there . My mom told me that actually my grandma really wants to stay with her daughter , better than staying in her son's house . My mom said that every mother prefer her daughter to take care of her , better than asking her son to take care of her . She said because the daughter must be more patience of taking care of her . She even asked me ,"Can I one day staying in your house when I'm sick , when one day you're married already ?" Then I was like why you're talking about being old and sickness ? But then I told her that she can come whenever she wants .
She also said that my grandma might stay in my house also and will sleep in my room , since it's the only empty room in my house . Then I asked her "What if she stays there when I'm home already ?"
My mom said ,"It's okay , can sleep with you lor ..."
Then I was so happy , finally I have roommate , in my house , yay ! I love my grandma . She's really kind . I don't understand why her daughters never care of her , don't want to accept her in their house ? Hmmmm so strange... Lucky she got 4 sons and willing to take care of her .
After that , she talked about my brother . She said ,"Hey , your brother fought with his ex yesterday !"
I was quite surprised . Then I asked her ,"Which ex ?"
"That girl la , his classmate , Vina , who else ??"
Oh... that girl huh... Hmmm I knew her , she got added me on FB before just to get some info about my brother then she removed me . I think they both always stuck in this cycle :
friends - relationship - break up - stranger - friends - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up - relationship (again) - break up .... (the next please type by yourself , I'm tired , I guess you know what's next right ?)
Ya... and forever it will be like that ...
Do you know how my brother asks a girl to be his girlfriend ? Quite simple .
Question : Do you want to be my gf ?
Answer : (must be) Yes / No
If you say yes , means ya , you want to be his gf .
If you say no , doesn't mean friendzone or just be friends or something , but enemy . Means don't talk to him anymore . Stranger . That's all .
So it's either be his gf or his enemy .
When he told me about this , I told him "Hmmm no wonder..."
"No wonder what ??"
"No wonder you never have long time relationship ..."
"Why ??"
"Because of the way you ask her la ! Wah liao , don't be so harsh to girl , later no girl wants you , how ? Talk softly , help her carry her bags , or books , or walk her to her house , are they difficult ?? Just do that to her , then see whether you can win her heart or no ... Easy right ?"
Then he said "What ??? No way ! I won't do that before she becomes my gf "
I was like ... okay... whatever ...
I think it's because he's still a kid la ... Dun understand about how to handle this kind of thing .
Hmmm really , sometimes , I want an older brother . I mean older brother , biological older brother . So then I dun need to be the eldest child anymore , then I know how it feels to be younger sister , then I can disturb him everyday . Then my younger brother can learn from my older brother also . I also want older sister , then I can learn from her la . Guess it's because my Mom only wants two children . Why not three or four ?
She said "Two children already made me headache ... Three or four children , hmmm I dunno , speechless..."
Haha , but I think now no headache anymore right ? Lol
Feeling Towards Mom
I called my Mom today after a video on youtube about mother's day made me cry like an emo . I talked to her then . Not saying happy mother's day though , coz mother's day in Indonesia is on December 22nd . I just wanted to hear her voice after several times I replied her messages in a real slow way till she was worried about me , she thought I was so busy , in fact I was talking with someone , either my roommate or my bf . I just realized that I talked less to her lately . So , I called her la this morning . She was like happy hearing my voice again . She told me that although I'm busy I should not say "I'm busy , call you later" or "I'm busy , don't call me" or "I can't talk now , later later later" to parents , no matter how busy I am . She said , parents will be sad if we say like that to them , those kind of reply can hurt their heart . So , I said okay I won't do that . She said that she is afraid if later after I'm graduated and I started working , I'll have less time for parents . Less talking , less contacting , etc. Then I said that I'll try to contact them everyday also la although if I have works to do .
I told her that I need pocket money also in my call this morning . Then she said that my Dad is unable to send me money till Monday coz he's not in Malang , but he's in Batu (a small city , 30 minutes by car from Malang) , he's having a karate refreshing there . I was like what ?? How to survive with SGD 32 only (only , only , only , only , only , etc) for 4 days ?? 8 dollars per day , hmmm , wait , I need to top up for my phone balance (SGD 20 ) and MRT also (SGD 10) , yeah , 30 dollars gone already , 2 dollars to survive for 4 days... so 50 cents a day . Yayyy (I dunno whether I should be happy or 'happy') ... I asked her "Mom , do you want me to starve for 4 days ?"
Then she said "I'm sorry , I don't want you to starve , but it's because I don't know how to send money to Singapore by OCBC ... Normally your father will do ."
Then I taught her how to send money , hope she can send it tomorrow... Not Monday (Nooooooooo............. Seriously , please no )
Then after that she asked me about my relationship (again , every day she asks actually) , she asked me ,"Do you think he's serious to have relationship with you ?"
Me : "What ? What do you mean ?"
Mom : "I mean not just play play with you ?"
Me :"I think ...ya... ? Why ?"
Mom : "Nothing , just scared if later he only play play with you , then you got broken heart again..."
Me : "Broken heart ? Hmmm ..."
Mom : "I know that's painful , but hope he's serious , I think he's serious..."
Me : "I think so and I hope so "
Then she asked me about how I loose my money so fast . Actually it's not fast , it's normal . I need to eat , drink , buy something else also . Then she asked me whether I used it for shopping clothes or something like eating a lots . Then I said nooooo . Aiyo , I ate once in a day lately . Then she asked me not to eat a lot . Ya , she wants me to have that model figure . Sadly , I'll never have that model figure , unless there's something wrong with my growth hormone that works fast on age 19 and above that's impossible . You know what ? The only thing from my body that have model size is my bust . Yeah , it's 89 cm (86 plus ease 3 cm) , definitely model size . My waist and hip definitely not model size . They're slightly bigger than model size . My height , hmmmm if you say that my height is model size , I dunno whether I should say thank you or "thank you" . If I had model height and model sized body , I'd definitely choose to be a model than a fashion designer . Haha ...
But hey , actually , being a model also not nice if you're not ready to be "touched" . Ya lor , last time , my illustration teacher in Malang said that before becoming an illustrator , she was a stylist in some fashion shows . Her job is to undress the models and put the new outfits on them . She said it's because each model will only have around 2-3 minutes inside the backstage before they have to show up again on stage with new outfits . So , it's impossible for them to change clothes by themselves . There will be around 3 stylists for each model , putting new outfit on them . So of course , the stylists will see the model naked and they got touch the model's body la of course , and the stylists won't always be girls , can be guy also . Once , my teacher , she got job to be one of the stylists in a menswear fashion show , she's scared , first time undressing a guy . Wah liao , no way , I don't think I'm ready for that job now . I'll be embarrassed . My teacher said , last time she's embarrassed also , then the model understand about that and he asked another stylist to replace her . Then she said that it's one of the reason why some models are gay or lesbian , because of this activity in the backstage . There won't be any secluded fitting room , so they can see each other naked , girl see girl naked or guy see guy naked . The fashion designer normally will just ask the stylist to do what she/he wants , no need to help them putting the outfit on the models , just walking around and checking whether they put the outfit in the correct way or no .
Hahaha , so ya , can be considered as lucky also I don't have that model height or model sized body . Lol , and anyway for whoever who has ever guessed that I'm a lesbian , please stop that thinking , I'm not a lesbian , although I got put my relationship status with a girl on my Facebook , she's just my best friend . I have a relationship with someone else , a guy , and not with her actually . Haha...
Then , my Mom also said that she really can't wait to see me again on May 20th . Yeah , actually I can't wait to see her and my Dad and my bro also . I think last year , before I flew back to Singapore , I bought a lots of movie too and haven't watched some of them . So , yeah , can't wait to watch them , hahaha .
She actually also can't wait to visit Singapore on August . I'm sure she will take like hundreds pictures of her self and my Dad , then I and my bro will be the free photographers . Lol , as always ...
Confirm she'll ask me take her to shopping malls . Hmmm then Orchard and Marina Bay are inside the 'must visit' list .
She said that she's often being lonely at home . Hmmm how I wish I could accompany her . I'll be watching movies and she'll be reading newspaper or playing Mahjong on computer . Then if I could drive , I could go shopping with her everyday , lol .
I told her that I need pocket money also in my call this morning . Then she said that my Dad is unable to send me money till Monday coz he's not in Malang , but he's in Batu (a small city , 30 minutes by car from Malang) , he's having a karate refreshing there . I was like what ?? How to survive with SGD 32 only (only , only , only , only , only , etc) for 4 days ?? 8 dollars per day , hmmm , wait , I need to top up for my phone balance (SGD 20 ) and MRT also (SGD 10) , yeah , 30 dollars gone already , 2 dollars to survive for 4 days... so 50 cents a day . Yayyy (I dunno whether I should be happy or 'happy') ... I asked her "Mom , do you want me to starve for 4 days ?"
Then she said "I'm sorry , I don't want you to starve , but it's because I don't know how to send money to Singapore by OCBC ... Normally your father will do ."
Then I taught her how to send money , hope she can send it tomorrow... Not Monday (Nooooooooo............. Seriously , please no )
Then after that she asked me about my relationship (again , every day she asks actually) , she asked me ,"Do you think he's serious to have relationship with you ?"
Me : "What ? What do you mean ?"
Mom : "I mean not just play play with you ?"
Me :"I think ...ya... ? Why ?"
Mom : "Nothing , just scared if later he only play play with you , then you got broken heart again..."
Me : "Broken heart ? Hmmm ..."
Mom : "I know that's painful , but hope he's serious , I think he's serious..."
Me : "I think so and I hope so "
Then she asked me about how I loose my money so fast . Actually it's not fast , it's normal . I need to eat , drink , buy something else also . Then she asked me whether I used it for shopping clothes or something like eating a lots . Then I said nooooo . Aiyo , I ate once in a day lately . Then she asked me not to eat a lot . Ya , she wants me to have that model figure . Sadly , I'll never have that model figure , unless there's something wrong with my growth hormone that works fast on age 19 and above that's impossible . You know what ? The only thing from my body that have model size is my bust . Yeah , it's 89 cm (86 plus ease 3 cm) , definitely model size . My waist and hip definitely not model size . They're slightly bigger than model size . My height , hmmmm if you say that my height is model size , I dunno whether I should say thank you or "thank you" . If I had model height and model sized body , I'd definitely choose to be a model than a fashion designer . Haha ...
But hey , actually , being a model also not nice if you're not ready to be "touched" . Ya lor , last time , my illustration teacher in Malang said that before becoming an illustrator , she was a stylist in some fashion shows . Her job is to undress the models and put the new outfits on them . She said it's because each model will only have around 2-3 minutes inside the backstage before they have to show up again on stage with new outfits . So , it's impossible for them to change clothes by themselves . There will be around 3 stylists for each model , putting new outfit on them . So of course , the stylists will see the model naked and they got touch the model's body la of course , and the stylists won't always be girls , can be guy also . Once , my teacher , she got job to be one of the stylists in a menswear fashion show , she's scared , first time undressing a guy . Wah liao , no way , I don't think I'm ready for that job now . I'll be embarrassed . My teacher said , last time she's embarrassed also , then the model understand about that and he asked another stylist to replace her . Then she said that it's one of the reason why some models are gay or lesbian , because of this activity in the backstage . There won't be any secluded fitting room , so they can see each other naked , girl see girl naked or guy see guy naked . The fashion designer normally will just ask the stylist to do what she/he wants , no need to help them putting the outfit on the models , just walking around and checking whether they put the outfit in the correct way or no .
Hahaha , so ya , can be considered as lucky also I don't have that model height or model sized body . Lol , and anyway for whoever who has ever guessed that I'm a lesbian , please stop that thinking , I'm not a lesbian , although I got put my relationship status with a girl on my Facebook , she's just my best friend . I have a relationship with someone else , a guy , and not with her actually . Haha...
Then , my Mom also said that she really can't wait to see me again on May 20th . Yeah , actually I can't wait to see her and my Dad and my bro also . I think last year , before I flew back to Singapore , I bought a lots of movie too and haven't watched some of them . So , yeah , can't wait to watch them , hahaha .
She actually also can't wait to visit Singapore on August . I'm sure she will take like hundreds pictures of her self and my Dad , then I and my bro will be the free photographers . Lol , as always ...
Confirm she'll ask me take her to shopping malls . Hmmm then Orchard and Marina Bay are inside the 'must visit' list .
She said that she's often being lonely at home . Hmmm how I wish I could accompany her . I'll be watching movies and she'll be reading newspaper or playing Mahjong on computer . Then if I could drive , I could go shopping with her everyday , lol .
8 May 2013
One Month
Yay , finally !! I have been together with my bf for one month . We started our relationship since April 7th , 2013 . Haha ...
So lucky , yesterday was the same day with his last day of exam so we could go watch movie at night . Missing him so damn badly sia after few days couldn't keep in contact with him coz of his exams . So , yesterday we went watch Scary Movie 5 at Bugis Plus . OMG , so damn funny sia that movie . I couldn't stop laughing , neither could him . Even after we finished watching the movie , I could still laugh laugh laugh . Hahahaha laugh die me . Wah liao , really , the one who got the idea of this movie must be an awesome person . The movie was so damn funny , not like the title .
So basically in this Scary Movie 5 , the story is about the parody of that horror movie called "Mama" . Crazy , even now I'm typing can laugh also remembering the funny scenes in that movie . For example got this man being hospitalized three times . The second times of him being hospitalized , after went back home , he couldn't recognize the right direction towards his house or something . Something wrong with his brain sia . Also when he said "I found a bandage on my head " and then his wife said "Okay , enough..."
And when got this man fought with his maid on the front yard of his house , then when got the police car passed them , they stopped fighting and waved hands towards the police car .
Hahahahahaha crazy !!
Also that one scene got one woman threw away a MacBook , till it's spoiled but then she put back the pieces together using that duct tape , wah liao , like this also can fix a MacBook ah ?? Hahahaha really , watching this movie can make you laugh like crazy .
Anyway , for my bf , happy one month anniversary , dear :) I love you <3 xoxo
So lucky , yesterday was the same day with his last day of exam so we could go watch movie at night . Missing him so damn badly sia after few days couldn't keep in contact with him coz of his exams . So , yesterday we went watch Scary Movie 5 at Bugis Plus . OMG , so damn funny sia that movie . I couldn't stop laughing , neither could him . Even after we finished watching the movie , I could still laugh laugh laugh . Hahahaha laugh die me . Wah liao , really , the one who got the idea of this movie must be an awesome person . The movie was so damn funny , not like the title .
So basically in this Scary Movie 5 , the story is about the parody of that horror movie called "Mama" . Crazy , even now I'm typing can laugh also remembering the funny scenes in that movie . For example got this man being hospitalized three times . The second times of him being hospitalized , after went back home , he couldn't recognize the right direction towards his house or something . Something wrong with his brain sia . Also when he said "I found a bandage on my head " and then his wife said "Okay , enough..."
And when got this man fought with his maid on the front yard of his house , then when got the police car passed them , they stopped fighting and waved hands towards the police car .
Hahahahahaha crazy !!
Also that one scene got one woman threw away a MacBook , till it's spoiled but then she put back the pieces together using that duct tape , wah liao , like this also can fix a MacBook ah ?? Hahahaha really , watching this movie can make you laugh like crazy .
Anyway , for my bf , happy one month anniversary , dear :) I love you <3 xoxo
6 May 2013
Deciding About What to Study After High School
After watching that Indonesian movie called "Kambing Jantan" (English : Male Goat) , I remember about how I and my family decided about what I'm gonna study after my high school . Let me tell you about what I wanted to be before I was admitted into NAFA .
When I was in pre-school , my teacher asked me about what I wanted to be in the future . I was confused , so then I asked my parents about what did the teacher mean . My mom said ,"Oh it's about your future job . I think it's better if you work as a doctor in the future . You can save people's life and earn much money !" So then the next day I told my teacher that I wanted to be a doctor . Till I was in primary school year 2 , I kept saying that I wanted to be a doctor . When I was in primary 2 , my Mom asked me to take a drawing course , knowing that my drawing score in school was so terrible . After I took the drawing course , I fell in love with drawing . Once I started drawing , I couldn't remember anything else , include time . So after one year , she asked me to stop the drawing course . I was sad . Started from primary 3 , I had new dream , I wanted to be an artist . When I told my mom about this , she was angry . Ya , she was disappointed of my new dream . She said that being an artist is a bad dream , bad future , no money lah , difficult to get a job lah , etc . So then I never talked about it in front of my mom anymore . I kept that dream inside my mind only . When I was in primary 5 , I started reading comic , since then I became a comic lover . Then when I asked my Dad to buy me the comic , he said ,"I'm sorry , Rong Li , but I don't have that much money to buy you this comic , better if I use the money to pay for your text books ..."
So , what I did was re-read that comic , tried to remember the pictures inside the comic , then when I reached home , I tried to draw the characters inside the comic . Since then , I started making comic by my self , and I had new dream , becoming a comicus , or mangaka , the popular term at that time . I didn't tell my Mom about this . Once , she found a comic I drew by my self inside my school bag . She was so mad and angry , so scary remembering that day . I was so sad . She asked me to tear all the pages of my comic , my 30 pages of comic . If you are an artist , you will know how it feels like to see your artwork to be torn and destroyed , especially it's your self whom is forced to destroy it . I hate it so damn badly !! Since then , I always be careful about my comics . I hid them , not inside my school bag , but inside my drawer in school . I kept drawing comics till I was in secondary school .
I had readers too for my comics . My best friends , they always read my comic . They supported me . I liked reading Detective Conan comics , Inuyasha , Nakayoshi , even guy's comics like Naruto , Yugi-oh , and One Piece , I also read . My bro got some comic collections as well . Sometimes , when I drew in class , and it wasn't my lucky day , the teacher caught me drawing and he/she would seize it from me :( .
When I was in secondary school year 1 , I got MP3 player as my 12th birthday gift . I started listening to music . I love music since then . That made me had a dream to be a DJ when I was in secondary school year 2 . Maybe it also because of me playing Audition Ayodance , an online game when I was in secondary school year 2 .
Okay , after year 2 of secondary school ended , and I was in year 3 of secondary school , I changed my dream again . Yeah , I wanted to be a doctor , again .
Till I was in 1st year of my high school / Junior college , I started to read novels more often . Till I was addicted to buy novels . Then my Dad told me not to waste money on buying novels . So , I had an idea , why didn't I make my own stories ? So I started learning how to write a story . Started from short stories . I had my best friends read them also , especially the girls . Then , I had a dream to be a writer . After that , on my second year of my high school , I learned how to draw in perspective way . Like about interior design and architecture , the basic one .
I joined a student exchange program to Perth when I was in second year of my junior college . I visited a university there , called University of Western Australia (UWA) , I was interested in architectural study after that . So , I told my Mom that I planned to study there and take architecture as my course . She was quite disappointed after that . She asked me why I changed my dream again . Then I tried to explain to her that it's because taking medical study has never won my heart . It's just not my major . I told her that I would fail immediately if I take medical study , then she scolded me ,"You haven't tried yet ! How come you say that you will fail ??"
Then my Dad already told her to let me choose my own way , not by her option , but by my own heart , but still , she insisted to register me to medical study . I was so damn stressed at that time . I felt like I had a 'gap' with my mom since then .
I became more stressed when I was in my final year of my high school (third year / year 12 for simple) . My school asked all final year students to take psychological test . So I took la . After I received my test result , I found out that my three highest study interests were Art (98/100) , Communication (90/100) , and Business (60/100) . In fact , my study interests in medical was 15 out of 100 only . When I showed it to my Mom , she said that the test wasn't accurate , she did still believe in her self .
The pressure became higher when it's left 5 months only before I was graduated from high school . She asked me whether I registered into any universities already or no . Then I told her that I haven't registered yet . She was shocked and panic . Left 5 months only and I haven't registered to any uni yet . Then she forced me to register to public universities in Indonesia . She asked me to try the medical study in Brawijaya University in Malang . You know ? It's so damn difficult to be admitted to public uni in Indonesia . If you're admitted into any public university in Indonesia , wah really , I must congratulate you ! So damn lucky ! Normally the people who join the intake test for public university are around one million people for one faculty , especially medical faculty , then the people who will be accepted are only 10% of them . So ya , you know now how difficult it is .
There's one more uni in Surabaya , near Malang , it's called A*******a University , public uni too and quite famous , but it's difficult for my school students to go study there , coz last time got one student registered to that uni , then after the uni accepted him , a few days after that , he got e-mail that he's admitted into NUS or NTU , I forget , so of course he chose to study in Singapore's famous uni la , then he cancelled to study in A*******a university . Since then , my school is blacklisted by that uni in Surabaya , I dunno now , maybe lately they opened the registration for my school again .
Okay , back to the topic . I didn't register to any public universities . I just didn't want to study in Indonesia . I told my Mom about this . Although got two private universities in Surabaya offer me scholarship , but I rejected them . She was angry knowing me rejecting the scholarship .
Four months before the graduation of my high school , my Mom finally stopped being a stubborn . She let me choose my own option to study after my high school . I asked her whether I could study in Perth . Then she asked an education agent in my hometown about some uni in Perth . First , when she asked about University of Western Australia (UWA) , she was shocked by the tuition fee . My Dad said that he really can't afford for that . It's AUD 27000 per year to study about architecture .
Okay , so cancelled . Then she asked me what I wanted to study besides architecture . Then I told her that I wanted to take graphic design (It's because last time , my third ex wanted to study about graphic design , so I followed la , hehe , now so lucky never take that course , graphic design isn't my major) . Okay , so she got info that in Perth got an art institution called TAFE , but when she knew about the tuition fee , she cancelled . It's AUD 10000 per year . Besides , the living cost in Perth is so damn expensive .
After that she asked me if it's ok with me to study overseas but not in Perth . She offered me to study in Malaysia . So I said okay , but then the education agent said that studying in Singapore is better , coz in Malaysia can't get part time job . So ya , okay , I agreed to study in Singapore . They offered me three school , NAFA , LaSalle , and Raffles . They suggested me to study in NAFA coz it offered 50% TGD . So , okay , I agreed . When I read the courses in NAFA , at first I wanted to study about graphic design . Then my Dad asked me ,"Are you sure ? Graphic design ? As I know , you'll use a lots of graphic software , I thought your computer score in school is always bad ? Always fail ?" Then I told him ,"Dad , it's GNU C++ , okay ? Different from graphic design ..."
After few weeks , I re-thought again about my choice . After thinking for quite long time , I told my parents that I wanted to change my course . I changed into fashion design . Actually I wanted all of the courses you know ? Lol , I love art very much . Art is my world . I wanted to take dance , I wanted to take music , theater , graphic design , animation , 3D design , fine arts , etc . Then my Mom asked me to stop being crazy and confirm my choice again . So I told her that okay , I chose fashion design .
Then when my Mom told my aunts , uncles , cousins , and my grandparents about this , one of my Aunts said ,"You should think again , Rong Li , I think studying in Singapore is too stressful , didn't you read the newspaper ? Got one Indonesian student called David Hartanto suicide because of his final year project ! I think he studied in Nanyang also ..."
Then my Mom was quite surprised also . Then I told her that mine is Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts (NAFA) not Nanyang Technological University (NTU) , that suicide guy studied in NTU , not NAFA . I told her also that I won't suicide because of art , it's my world , my real desire .
Ya , ikr , so many natural science students in my school will compete in intake test for NTU or NUS . Those two universities are very famous in my school . Even some people will grade my school by counting how many students are admitted into one of those uni in a year . In my graduation year , none of the students were admitted into one of those universities . So , some people already said that my school's achievement had decreased , because of that only . Because normally got at least one student per year , admitted to NTU or NUS , from my high school . NAFA is quite popular in my high school , but not as popular as the two uni . There were only three students from the same graduation year with me amd the same high school , admitted into NAFA , two girls (included me) , and one guy . I and that girl are currently in fashion design and the guy is in graphic design .
My Mom told me that if I couldn't get the 50% TGD , my parents wouldn't be able to send me study there . Coz it would be too expensive for them . It's SGD 16000 per year without TGD .
At first , I was on the waiting list , I was so damn sad at that time , till I didn't have any appetite to eat and just can cry cry cry inside my bed room . The few days after that , my education agent told me that I got TGD , I was so damn happy , and ya , see , now I'm a NAFA student . Finally I can prove to my parents and friends , that art is my major , not medical study .
Now , it's my brother who got problem with his future study after high school . My mom wants him to study about computer science . She said because he likes gaming , so better for him to study about computer and taking natural science study in high school . But my brother , he himself actually wants to study about cooking . Ya , he's a natural cook , for me . He said that he likes gaming , but doesn't mean he likes programming . Then I told my mom not to force him . It's because , I felt it already how it feels like to be forced to study about something that you actually dislike . I took natural science in high school , but actually I didn't like , you know ? It's because of my Mom forced me . Now , see , where got I study about natural science ? I study about fashion design now , no connection with natural science .
My brother also dislike natural science , he told me that actually he wants to take social science in high school , but my Mom insisted that he must take natural science .
Hmmm well ... I dunno what to say again ... Mom's rules , haha ...
When I was in pre-school , my teacher asked me about what I wanted to be in the future . I was confused , so then I asked my parents about what did the teacher mean . My mom said ,"Oh it's about your future job . I think it's better if you work as a doctor in the future . You can save people's life and earn much money !" So then the next day I told my teacher that I wanted to be a doctor . Till I was in primary school year 2 , I kept saying that I wanted to be a doctor . When I was in primary 2 , my Mom asked me to take a drawing course , knowing that my drawing score in school was so terrible . After I took the drawing course , I fell in love with drawing . Once I started drawing , I couldn't remember anything else , include time . So after one year , she asked me to stop the drawing course . I was sad . Started from primary 3 , I had new dream , I wanted to be an artist . When I told my mom about this , she was angry . Ya , she was disappointed of my new dream . She said that being an artist is a bad dream , bad future , no money lah , difficult to get a job lah , etc . So then I never talked about it in front of my mom anymore . I kept that dream inside my mind only . When I was in primary 5 , I started reading comic , since then I became a comic lover . Then when I asked my Dad to buy me the comic , he said ,"I'm sorry , Rong Li , but I don't have that much money to buy you this comic , better if I use the money to pay for your text books ..."
So , what I did was re-read that comic , tried to remember the pictures inside the comic , then when I reached home , I tried to draw the characters inside the comic . Since then , I started making comic by my self , and I had new dream , becoming a comicus , or mangaka , the popular term at that time . I didn't tell my Mom about this . Once , she found a comic I drew by my self inside my school bag . She was so mad and angry , so scary remembering that day . I was so sad . She asked me to tear all the pages of my comic , my 30 pages of comic . If you are an artist , you will know how it feels like to see your artwork to be torn and destroyed , especially it's your self whom is forced to destroy it . I hate it so damn badly !! Since then , I always be careful about my comics . I hid them , not inside my school bag , but inside my drawer in school . I kept drawing comics till I was in secondary school .
I had readers too for my comics . My best friends , they always read my comic . They supported me . I liked reading Detective Conan comics , Inuyasha , Nakayoshi , even guy's comics like Naruto , Yugi-oh , and One Piece , I also read . My bro got some comic collections as well . Sometimes , when I drew in class , and it wasn't my lucky day , the teacher caught me drawing and he/she would seize it from me :( .
When I was in secondary school year 1 , I got MP3 player as my 12th birthday gift . I started listening to music . I love music since then . That made me had a dream to be a DJ when I was in secondary school year 2 . Maybe it also because of me playing Audition Ayodance , an online game when I was in secondary school year 2 .
Okay , after year 2 of secondary school ended , and I was in year 3 of secondary school , I changed my dream again . Yeah , I wanted to be a doctor , again .
Till I was in 1st year of my high school / Junior college , I started to read novels more often . Till I was addicted to buy novels . Then my Dad told me not to waste money on buying novels . So , I had an idea , why didn't I make my own stories ? So I started learning how to write a story . Started from short stories . I had my best friends read them also , especially the girls . Then , I had a dream to be a writer . After that , on my second year of my high school , I learned how to draw in perspective way . Like about interior design and architecture , the basic one .
I joined a student exchange program to Perth when I was in second year of my junior college . I visited a university there , called University of Western Australia (UWA) , I was interested in architectural study after that . So , I told my Mom that I planned to study there and take architecture as my course . She was quite disappointed after that . She asked me why I changed my dream again . Then I tried to explain to her that it's because taking medical study has never won my heart . It's just not my major . I told her that I would fail immediately if I take medical study , then she scolded me ,"You haven't tried yet ! How come you say that you will fail ??"
Then my Dad already told her to let me choose my own way , not by her option , but by my own heart , but still , she insisted to register me to medical study . I was so damn stressed at that time . I felt like I had a 'gap' with my mom since then .
I became more stressed when I was in my final year of my high school (third year / year 12 for simple) . My school asked all final year students to take psychological test . So I took la . After I received my test result , I found out that my three highest study interests were Art (98/100) , Communication (90/100) , and Business (60/100) . In fact , my study interests in medical was 15 out of 100 only . When I showed it to my Mom , she said that the test wasn't accurate , she did still believe in her self .
The pressure became higher when it's left 5 months only before I was graduated from high school . She asked me whether I registered into any universities already or no . Then I told her that I haven't registered yet . She was shocked and panic . Left 5 months only and I haven't registered to any uni yet . Then she forced me to register to public universities in Indonesia . She asked me to try the medical study in Brawijaya University in Malang . You know ? It's so damn difficult to be admitted to public uni in Indonesia . If you're admitted into any public university in Indonesia , wah really , I must congratulate you ! So damn lucky ! Normally the people who join the intake test for public university are around one million people for one faculty , especially medical faculty , then the people who will be accepted are only 10% of them . So ya , you know now how difficult it is .
There's one more uni in Surabaya , near Malang , it's called A*******a University , public uni too and quite famous , but it's difficult for my school students to go study there , coz last time got one student registered to that uni , then after the uni accepted him , a few days after that , he got e-mail that he's admitted into NUS or NTU , I forget , so of course he chose to study in Singapore's famous uni la , then he cancelled to study in A*******a university . Since then , my school is blacklisted by that uni in Surabaya , I dunno now , maybe lately they opened the registration for my school again .
Okay , back to the topic . I didn't register to any public universities . I just didn't want to study in Indonesia . I told my Mom about this . Although got two private universities in Surabaya offer me scholarship , but I rejected them . She was angry knowing me rejecting the scholarship .
Four months before the graduation of my high school , my Mom finally stopped being a stubborn . She let me choose my own option to study after my high school . I asked her whether I could study in Perth . Then she asked an education agent in my hometown about some uni in Perth . First , when she asked about University of Western Australia (UWA) , she was shocked by the tuition fee . My Dad said that he really can't afford for that . It's AUD 27000 per year to study about architecture .
Okay , so cancelled . Then she asked me what I wanted to study besides architecture . Then I told her that I wanted to take graphic design (It's because last time , my third ex wanted to study about graphic design , so I followed la , hehe , now so lucky never take that course , graphic design isn't my major) . Okay , so she got info that in Perth got an art institution called TAFE , but when she knew about the tuition fee , she cancelled . It's AUD 10000 per year . Besides , the living cost in Perth is so damn expensive .
After that she asked me if it's ok with me to study overseas but not in Perth . She offered me to study in Malaysia . So I said okay , but then the education agent said that studying in Singapore is better , coz in Malaysia can't get part time job . So ya , okay , I agreed to study in Singapore . They offered me three school , NAFA , LaSalle , and Raffles . They suggested me to study in NAFA coz it offered 50% TGD . So , okay , I agreed . When I read the courses in NAFA , at first I wanted to study about graphic design . Then my Dad asked me ,"Are you sure ? Graphic design ? As I know , you'll use a lots of graphic software , I thought your computer score in school is always bad ? Always fail ?" Then I told him ,"Dad , it's GNU C++ , okay ? Different from graphic design ..."
After few weeks , I re-thought again about my choice . After thinking for quite long time , I told my parents that I wanted to change my course . I changed into fashion design . Actually I wanted all of the courses you know ? Lol , I love art very much . Art is my world . I wanted to take dance , I wanted to take music , theater , graphic design , animation , 3D design , fine arts , etc . Then my Mom asked me to stop being crazy and confirm my choice again . So I told her that okay , I chose fashion design .
Then when my Mom told my aunts , uncles , cousins , and my grandparents about this , one of my Aunts said ,"You should think again , Rong Li , I think studying in Singapore is too stressful , didn't you read the newspaper ? Got one Indonesian student called David Hartanto suicide because of his final year project ! I think he studied in Nanyang also ..."
Then my Mom was quite surprised also . Then I told her that mine is Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts (NAFA) not Nanyang Technological University (NTU) , that suicide guy studied in NTU , not NAFA . I told her also that I won't suicide because of art , it's my world , my real desire .
Ya , ikr , so many natural science students in my school will compete in intake test for NTU or NUS . Those two universities are very famous in my school . Even some people will grade my school by counting how many students are admitted into one of those uni in a year . In my graduation year , none of the students were admitted into one of those universities . So , some people already said that my school's achievement had decreased , because of that only . Because normally got at least one student per year , admitted to NTU or NUS , from my high school . NAFA is quite popular in my high school , but not as popular as the two uni . There were only three students from the same graduation year with me amd the same high school , admitted into NAFA , two girls (included me) , and one guy . I and that girl are currently in fashion design and the guy is in graphic design .
My Mom told me that if I couldn't get the 50% TGD , my parents wouldn't be able to send me study there . Coz it would be too expensive for them . It's SGD 16000 per year without TGD .
At first , I was on the waiting list , I was so damn sad at that time , till I didn't have any appetite to eat and just can cry cry cry inside my bed room . The few days after that , my education agent told me that I got TGD , I was so damn happy , and ya , see , now I'm a NAFA student . Finally I can prove to my parents and friends , that art is my major , not medical study .
Now , it's my brother who got problem with his future study after high school . My mom wants him to study about computer science . She said because he likes gaming , so better for him to study about computer and taking natural science study in high school . But my brother , he himself actually wants to study about cooking . Ya , he's a natural cook , for me . He said that he likes gaming , but doesn't mean he likes programming . Then I told my mom not to force him . It's because , I felt it already how it feels like to be forced to study about something that you actually dislike . I took natural science in high school , but actually I didn't like , you know ? It's because of my Mom forced me . Now , see , where got I study about natural science ? I study about fashion design now , no connection with natural science .
My brother also dislike natural science , he told me that actually he wants to take social science in high school , but my Mom insisted that he must take natural science .
Hmmm well ... I dunno what to say again ... Mom's rules , haha ...
4 May 2013
A Cute Old Story I Dig Out from My E-mail (not my original work) , Enjoy :)
The day after the
XXXIV Super Bowl was my first day at Murdoch University whereI was studying to
be a lyricist. Because of the thousands of students wandering around making their
way to lectures and classes, I forgot where I was heading. I was looking for
some help when I noticed a brown-haired, blue-eyed girl sitting gracefully on
one of the benches. She seemed to be writing down notes in some sort of journal
with a bright yellow cover. Somehow, I felt instantly attracted to her.
“Hi,
I’m Levi West. It’s my first day here and I’m looking for the music studios,do
you know where they are?” I was trying really hard not to look nervous.Unfortunately,
I showed it by scratching
the back of my neck.
“Hey,
I’m Eloise Edwards. It’s my first day too and I’m doing the Music Technology
course as well,” she repliedshyly.
“Shall
we check at the Student Information Centre then? I’m sorry, only if you’ve finished writing
your notes.”
“It’s
okay. I can finish these lyrics off another time.”
“So
you’re a writer as well? Can I have a look at your work?” I asked, feeling much more relaxed than a minute ago.
“Umm,
I’ll show you one piece I wroteand that’s all, okay?” She responded shyly.
“Okay.”I
smiled. So far my day had improved 100 percent.
The
lyric she wrote was reallybeautiful.It was the piece she was working on when I
approached her.
Bring forth
the old, dirty roads that lie beneath the sun.
Open up to the world of heat high up
north somewhere.
So let’s laugh about all the times
we’ll have.
“This
is a fantastic start!”I replied surprisingly with a grin. “Shall we make our
way to the Student Info Centre?”
“Thanks,
I don’t usually let people see my unfinished work.Yes, we should head off or
we’ll be late.” Shesmiled.
“So
where are you from, Eloise?” I asked as we made our way to the Student Info
Centre.
“I’m
from Subiaco. I graduated from Perth Modern School. Where do you come from?”
“I’m a local guy.I live just around the corner and I graduated from Aquinas College,” I answered, still scratching the back of my neck.
“I’m a local guy.I live just around the corner and I graduated from Aquinas College,” I answered, still scratching the back of my neck.
“My
best friend’s boyfriend went to school there.Do you know Johnny Greenwood?”
“Yeah,he
was alwaysa bit of a show off, especially in the ‘96 Cross Country, jogging the
whole way except for walking up Chunder Hill then obliterating the second
person in the last 100 meters,”My neck was burning with an itch I couldn’t
scratch out.
“I
heard about that.Is something irritating your neck?You seem to be scratching it
a lot.” She giggled and pointed to my neck.
“Nah,
it’s fine,” I said embarrassingly. “It’s only a mosquito bite,” I lied.
“Do
you want me to have a look at it then?I did a first aid course last year and I
carry around all sorts of stuff to help cure little things like that.”
“It’s
alright.My dad has some special concoction.He puts on creams and lotionsthat
cures them,like that!”I lied…again, clicking my fingers.If she noticed there was
not really a mosquito bite there, she might have thought I was weird.
Just
as we reached theStudent Info Centre,I glanced down at my watch which read 8:05!
“Shoot
we’re late, class starts at 8am, doesn’t it? I’ll get the info while you
prepare to sprint!” I shrieked.
When
we arrived at the studio, we discovered our class actually started at 8:30. We
chatted and laughed at our fortune until our first class began. Something magical
had happened that day.
On that very
samenight, I had a flashback dream about how I came to have my musical talents
discovered.It was my first day in year five; February 3rd1992.We
arrived eager for the year to start and we were introduced to our tutors. Mine
was Miss Pickett who was also amusic teacher at the college. Before the classes
started that morning she decided to give us all an audition for choir. It was a
nervous wait until my name was called out. I started to scratch the back of my
neck since I had never sung in front of an audience before. I had only sung
when my dad blasted Michael Jackson in the CD playerin the car and I sang along
with him.
“Last one…Levi!
What song would you like to sing?” beamed Miss Pickett.
“Am I allowed
to sing ‘Black or White’ by Michael Jackson,Miss?”
“Of
course you are, and good choice by the way,”
I
took a deep breath before I sung the first verse and chorus of Black or White with all my heart.Miss
Pickett left the room immediately after I finished. I was thinking “Was I that bad?”When she arrived back
with the headmaster,Mr. Carrigg.
She
said to Mr. Carrigg,“We need to make some room in this afternoon’s assembly for
this boy!”
I
was shaking and itching more than ever before the performance.
“If
you can sing it in front of me and the whole of your tutor group you can sing
it in front of the school!” Miss Picket said.
This
gave me the extra confidence boost I needed. Five minutes later I performed it
again for the whole school in the introductory assembly for the year.Everyone
went nuts after the performance.
I
woke up with the world’s biggest smile on my face. I couldn’t wait to tell my
story to Eloise!
April
8th 2001
A
year and a few months have passedsinceEloise and I started dating and our bond
has become unbreakable. We did
everything together,from University assignments to having a sing-along in my
parents’ backyard.Tonight, I decided to ask her out to one of those drive-in
cinemas. We saw the movie ‘The Princess Diaries’ her choice of course.For most
of the car trip, all was silent except for the soundof the car driving down the
roads. I decided to try to start a conversation.
“What
did you think of the movie?” I asked
“It
was pretty good. Better than I expected. Did you like it?”
“Yeah,
it was better than I expected. The stars are looking beautiful tonight.”
“Wow
they’re beautiful!”
“And
look it’s a full moon tonight!” I exclaimed pointing at the moon in its full bright
beauty.
“Yeah!
Did you plan this to be on the night of the full moon?” she asked looking at me
with a funny impression
“No,
no I didn’t it just happened to be a coincidence.” I smiled as we pulled into
her parents’ driveway
“Thanks
for taking me out tonight. I really needed the break from my studies.”
“The pleasure was all mine. I needed
the break too.”
I
opened her car door and walked her to the front door of her home.
“Thanks
again for taking me out.” She repeated
“No
worries. Let’s do this more often.”
“I’ll
see you Monday!”
“Will
do.” I smiled back
I
was just about to turn and walk away when something gushed over me.
“Eloise!”
I called out
“Yes.”
She replied returning to the front door.
“I
forgot to give you something.”
“What?”
“This.”
I said as I leaned in and gave Eloise a kiss on the lips
“See
you Monday.” I smiled.
December
10-28th 2003
We're both
going on a winter holiday.
No more
working for a week or two.
Fun and
laughter on a winter holiday.
No more
worries for me and you.
For a week or
two.
University
is out and holidays are in. We finally graduated from University!It was the
Christmas of 03’, Eloise and I decided to have a white Christmas overseas. We
spent the first four days in L.A. then moved onto to visit marvelousMiami for three
days followed by a four-hour trip to noisy New York where we stayed for four
days. We spent Christmas and an extra four other days in beautiful Banff,
Canada before returning home just before the New Year. We planned to sleep in
different rooms to get cheaper accommodation prices.
In
L.A., we ate the world’s best burgers and chips, took the tour through
Hollywood and saw many great actors’houses. Miami was amazing with the beaches
and Everglades.We saw the endangered Myanmar birdwith bright colorful feathers.
New York was breathtaking with astonishing TimesSquare, the Empire State Building
and masses of people. Banff was the highlight with snow every day and the
joyful Christmas spirit in the air.
On
Christmas morning when I woke up, I felt something deep inside of me. Something
that I hadn’t felt before. Back then, I didn’t know what it was, I now know; it
was love.For Christmas I gave Eloise a pearl necklace from the Tiffany store in
New York.She brought me the latest I-pod.
When
we were going down for Christmas brunch, I noticed something on the light in
the lift.
“Hey
Eloise, what do you think that thing on the light is?”
“I
don’t know. I think it’s mistletoe.”
This
sparked my memories of that lovely night in April.
“Oh
yeah, you’re right.” I said as I leaned in and gave Eloise a kiss on the lips.
March
7th-10th2004
I
received a call in my I.T. office at my job as an IT Technician from the
hospital at lunchtime today. Eloise and I randown the fluorescently lighted
hallways of Charlie Gardiner Hospital,scouting for room H78. When we reach the room,
we
burst through the doors to
see my dad lying unconscious on the hospital bed connected to a drip. The soft
tone of the heart beat monitor beeping every second.My father looked as if he
had been in a deep sleep with deep, drowsy eyes folded over as we waited and hoped
he would awake.
Eloise
had stayed with me for a week after my father’s severe heart attack. Many
friends of mine and Eloise sent get-well cards and condolences. The room felt
empty as we waited for any sight of life to come from the bed.The doctors came
in and out regularly to do checkups to prevent anything bad occurring. The
doctors all said that they did not know when he would wake up, just like a
broken record.
On
the 1stOctober the sky once known to be blue was filled up with the
white soft clouds sending out a meaning of hope. My father awoke suddenly with
his heart rate rapidly increasing. I ran out to the corridor and shouted out
for doctor assistance. My father started shaking violently. He was having a
seizure!
“HELP!!!
HELP!!!” I yelled at the top of my voice.
Doctors
had arrived as quickly as they could and pushed my dad’s bed into an operating
room.I was too scared to watch. I didn’t want to lose my dad.I called Eloise in
panic.
“Hey,how’s
your dad going?” She asked with concern.
“I’ve
got some good news and some bad news.” I replied.
“Oh
dear!Tell the good news first.”
“My
Father has woken up from his coma,but the bad news is he has woken up into an
epileptic seizure.”
“Oh
my God! I’m so sorry Levi.”
December
25th2004
It
was a Christmas miracle. On the morning of Christmas my dad was released fully
healthy. That year I got almost everything I wanted for Christmas. My father was
back to full health from the hospital andEloise had canceled all her other
plans to cook us a Christmas roast. I don’t think I’ll ever find a better
friend than her.
August
16th 2005
Around
this time work as an IT Technician was dull and boring.Although, come to think
of it, it’s like that most of the time.Eloise had been away on a business trip
for a few weeks, in a dream job as one of the 10 musical composers for the West
Australian Symphony Orchestra.They travel around frequently which makes me miss
Eloise a lot.Thankfully, she came back that afternoon andtomorrow was my birthday.
Eloise is going to take me out partying. I’m not much of a partygoer but since
it was my birthday, it was something special.
August
17th 2005
The club is
pumping,
The DJ’s thumping.
My head is
spinning round and round.
I see her,
She sees me.
But she’s
with someone who’s not me.
August
18th 2005
The
world’s worst case of bad breath is haunting me and my head is in more agony
than anything else ever could. I get up to call Eloise to see how she is.
“Okay,
how are you?” She answered.
“My
head’s a bit sore and I’m really tired?” I replied groggily.
“I
had a fun time with Marcus last night.”
My
happiness in talking to her stopped. I felt shocked and torn.
“Hello?
Hello? Levi, are you still there?” My heart felt torn apart. I couldn’t speak.
I hung up the phone. I was so depressed. I felt like all the life had been
sucked out of me. Up untilnow, I had thought Eloise loved me; but maybe not!
I thought you
felt the same way,
But have your
feelings drifted away?
My love for
you is never ending,
But you’ve
ended the love that you were sending.
I
quit my job as an IT Technician. It was far too boring and I wanted to continue
playing my music, which reminded me of the times Eloise and I had. I took a job
up at a local bar ‘The Shack’. I was to perform everyThursday night to pursue
my music while I wrote songs about anything that captured my inspiration. Of
course, these mainly involved Eloise.
My world is so alone,
For and every night I cannot sleep I
just moan.
My heart has broken because of you,
Many sleepless nights from love that
seemed to be true.
December
31st 2005 - January 1st 2006
I
hadn’t talked to Eloise since that horrible morning on the phone in August. The
end of the year 2005 seems to come up very suddenly. I hadn’t gone a day
without thinking about Eloise. She was once my best friend and now we barely talked.
I had been invited to aNew Year’s Eve party at the local Surf Club, by a mate of
mine, Sean. He hated to see me so down.
“You’ll
probably find a new girl tonight man, a hotter one too!”
I
decided to tag along just to make him happy. It was about time to escape my
misery.
The
party was taking off. At least 1000 people of both sexes were there. I was on
the side watching people show off their moves. Then out of the corner of my eye
I saw a brown haired,blue-eyed girl. My stomach churned. It was Eloise. I
couldn’t help but look at her. She was looking so stunning in her blue dress.
My mind was in a whirl!“Should I talk to
her or shouldn’t I?”
It
looked as if she was looking directly at me, then she turned her head away.
Sean
noticed me staring at someone and then he realized it was Eloise.
“Hey
man, forget about her. There are plenty of other hot chicks in the sea. C’mon
follow me.”
Sean
dragged me over to another girl.
“Bianca
meet Levi; Levi meet Bianca.” Sean introduced.
“Have
a good night.” Sean smiled and winked wickedly at me.
Bianca
was a beautiful blonde bombshell. I can see why Sean wanted me to meet her but
I still could not stop thinking about Eloise.
“So,
would you like to dance?” I asked Bianca absentmindedly.
“Sure.”
“So
where are you from? You don’t look Australian,” I asked looking past her at
Eloise.
“I’m
from the U.S.. I moved here last year to start my own hairdressing business.”
“How’s
that working out for you?” I asked, still spaced out looking at Eloise.
“It’s
going quite well actually. We have an average of 600 customers per fortnight
which brings in a reasonable income.”
“That’s
good” I said absently, as I saw Eloise staring straight at me.
“Hey,
Levi!” Eloise called out and moved across the room towards me.I lost all train
of thought and left Bianca feeling very alone.
“Hi,
how are you?” I asked breathlessly,scratching the back of my neck.
“Good,
thanks.Who’s this?” She asked in a disheartened tone.
“This
is Bianca. Bianca, Eloise. Eloise,Bianca.”
“Nice
to meet you,Bianca.”
“Nice
to meet you too Eloise. I’m a bit thirsty does anyone else want anything?” Bianca
asked awkwardly.
“I’m
good thanks.” smiled Eloise
“Same,”
I replied.
“Okay,
I’ll be back in a minute.”
After
Biancaleft, Eloise asked, “Why didn’t you return my calls?”
“I
loved you Eloise,” I said with melancholy. “You broke my heart on my birthday.
I thought you felt something too, but I guess I was wrong.”
“Levi.
I love you too. I guess I’m too late?” She asked in a way so as her statement
came out as a question.
“You
love me? But what about Marcus?”
“Marcus
was one of my work mates. Nothing happened that night, we only danced. It was
fun dancing but nothing more.”
“I thought you were saying you had a good
night with him meaning he took you home.”
“No
way, he’s not my type. He did have to give me a ride home because you left a
bit early but nothing happened at all! What about you and Bianca?”
“Bianca
isn’t my girlfriend; Sean introduced me to her about ten minutes ago. He was
trying to help me get over you.”
“I
went down to a couple of your performances at the Shack. I didn’t think you
wanted to see me so I hid up the back. Were those songs all about me?”She asked
with blush in her cheeks.
“Yes!
What in the world would’ve made you think that? I would’ve given anything to
see you! And since you’re here nowcan I have a makeup dance for not doing so on
my birthday?” I asked smiling.
“I
would love to dance with you!” she smiled.
“Oh
sorry don’t let me interrupt you two love birds,” Bianca giggled.
“Sorry
Bianca, I’m sure Sean would love someone to dance with” I replied pointing to
Sean dancing by himself in a corner.
“Thanks!”
she smiled
As
we danced, I noticed Eloise’s smile beaming brighter than I have ever seen it
before.All of a sudden, Ifelt my heart beat faster until I realized the lights
had dimmed down.
“Eloise?”
I asked.
“Yes?”
She replied.
“What’s
your New Year’sresolution going to be?”
“I
haven’t really thought about it much.What about you?”
“I’m
hoping my New Year’sresolution will be; to be the best husband in the whole
world.”
“What
are you talking about?” she stared at me with a strange look in her eyes.
“Eloise
Edwards, will you marry me?”I asked as I went down on one knee.“I should have
given you this ring a long time ago. I’ve carried it around with me every day since
I last saw you. I didn’t want to give it away to anyone except you. You’re the
only person who I want to have as my weddedwife.”
February17th
2006
Wedding bells
are ringing,
The
choirgirls are singing.
Roseanna
walks down the aisle,
With a
cheerful, gleaming smile.
Followed by
Marisa,
And Tiana her
twin sister.
Then down
comes yours truly,
Eloise
Edwards so pretty and lovely.
The
day I married Eloise Edwards!A few years down the track, she is just as
beautiful as she ever was. Her smile still shines as bright as it did that
night. We now have twin girls, Chloe and Michelle. They arethree years old and
already showing the world how they will be as cute as their mother Eloise.
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