Ya , I'm soooooo happy right now :D
I just back from movie with him :D
We watched "The Host" , nice movie with nice situation . I really enjoyed every moment I spent with him . I hope he enjoyed too . Well , I think I can't stop smiling from now on . I'm so damn happy . I think I can't sleep later or maybe if I'm asleep , I'll sleep with a good dream and face full of smile . Oh God , I can't believe it , I finally met him again .
Every time , I always wait for weekend , ya , waiting for him asking me out on weekend .
I still remember he held my hand down while watching movie because I covered my face , because ya , it's my habit , every time got like scary scene , I always cover my face . I hate seeing blood or killing scene . Haha
I like when he held my hand down . Dunno why ...
Haha ..
31 Mar 2013
I'm Still Here
Ya... I'm still here waiting for you...
Hoping you will think about me .
Yeah , listening to this Indonesian song "Here For You" makes me remember about him again . Everyday , he always crosses my mind . Maybe it's because of my feeling . I know he's busy with his assignments lately . I hope he's okay . I hope he won't just care about his assignments only , I hope he cares about his health also . I know school is important , but health is more important . I hope he knows about it . Although I doubt he will read this post of mine here .
The thing that I appreciate from him is that he does still contact me everyday although he's so busy with his assignments . I do appreciate that .
The thing that I hate the most is that this feeling keep tickling me from inside . I hope my mouth is strong enough to tahan this feeling , to hold this feeling , not to come out from my mouth . I have to wait . Since I'm a girl , I must wait , I can't just anyhow confess , later people will think that I'm cheap . Confess confess confess , every time it's always me confess first . Can I please just once got one guy that I truly like confess to me first ??
Hmmm , okay , maybe I must be more patience . Patience can make better result . I hope so . I also hope that patience doesn't mean waiting for that stupid four years . Well , or maybe I'm on the wrong track of love ? Hmmm... maybe , just maybe...
It's so funny remembering last time , when I first time received his message on that chatting app , I felt that his profile was a fake , because of his profile picture is blur , besides , I liked someone else at that time . So that I didn't really care about him . Then day by day passed , he still talks to me till now , and I realized that he always cares about me . Hmmm , but now , I hope that I don't make him bored or something , because of this strange feeling , liking someone and that's him .
Last time , I got say about his address right ? Now I know about his block already . Ya , I think last time when he sent me the picture of night view outside of his house taken from his living room , I can guess that he's staying at block 663 ? I'm not sure also , I just guess from the night view only , I noticed all the buildings outside of his house , I guess by the view angle also , must be taken from that block . If taken from block 662 I think it's too close ? Hmmm I just need to guess the floor he's staying on then , impossible though .
Hmmm I stay not far from his house but I dunno why my heart feels very far from him ?
I'm sorry arh , every time I got something to share always share here , because I got nobody to share with . I'm afraid if I might disturb their activities by sharing this kind of stuffs . This blog is just like my online diary...
Hoping you will think about me .
Yeah , listening to this Indonesian song "Here For You" makes me remember about him again . Everyday , he always crosses my mind . Maybe it's because of my feeling . I know he's busy with his assignments lately . I hope he's okay . I hope he won't just care about his assignments only , I hope he cares about his health also . I know school is important , but health is more important . I hope he knows about it . Although I doubt he will read this post of mine here .
The thing that I appreciate from him is that he does still contact me everyday although he's so busy with his assignments . I do appreciate that .
The thing that I hate the most is that this feeling keep tickling me from inside . I hope my mouth is strong enough to tahan this feeling , to hold this feeling , not to come out from my mouth . I have to wait . Since I'm a girl , I must wait , I can't just anyhow confess , later people will think that I'm cheap . Confess confess confess , every time it's always me confess first . Can I please just once got one guy that I truly like confess to me first ??
Hmmm , okay , maybe I must be more patience . Patience can make better result . I hope so . I also hope that patience doesn't mean waiting for that stupid four years . Well , or maybe I'm on the wrong track of love ? Hmmm... maybe , just maybe...
It's so funny remembering last time , when I first time received his message on that chatting app , I felt that his profile was a fake , because of his profile picture is blur , besides , I liked someone else at that time . So that I didn't really care about him . Then day by day passed , he still talks to me till now , and I realized that he always cares about me . Hmmm , but now , I hope that I don't make him bored or something , because of this strange feeling , liking someone and that's him .
Last time , I got say about his address right ? Now I know about his block already . Ya , I think last time when he sent me the picture of night view outside of his house taken from his living room , I can guess that he's staying at block 663 ? I'm not sure also , I just guess from the night view only , I noticed all the buildings outside of his house , I guess by the view angle also , must be taken from that block . If taken from block 662 I think it's too close ? Hmmm I just need to guess the floor he's staying on then , impossible though .
Hmmm I stay not far from his house but I dunno why my heart feels very far from him ?
I'm sorry arh , every time I got something to share always share here , because I got nobody to share with . I'm afraid if I might disturb their activities by sharing this kind of stuffs . This blog is just like my online diary...
30 Mar 2013
Confusing part 1
Hmmm really arh ...
This feeling started getting stranger and stranger...
I think I should really go see a doctor or psychiatrist to check my self . What's wrong with me ??
First thing , when I asked him whether he met any girls beside me and he said yes , I felt like my heart got a tight slap .
He even talked about this one girl he met , having problem of her life and he showed his little sympathy . Hmmm :(
Dunno why this feeling started getting stranger and stranger .
"I LIKE YOU"
Only three words . One sentence . But dunno how so difficult to be told to him .
So many questions about him swimming inside my mind . Do I bore him ? Am I boring ? Am I ugly ? Am I so bad ? Does he like another girl ? Or does he look for no girlfriend ? Is he okay ? Should I confess ? Should I wait for him to confess to me first ?
I really wished he could understand that when I say 'hmmm ok' , there're lots of questions behind it and when I say 'I'm okay' , there's a little jealous feeling behind it . But ya... only wish ...
I really don't understand about this feeling anymore .
I hate liking someone .
I hate , I hate , I hate !
Especially when the guy doesn't want me at all .
Even he forget his saying about taking me to that place this week ??
Oh shit , I'm so forgetable...
I'm hopeless , and... ya , priceless
I feel so stupid , why I like him ??
When he isn't even interested in me ?
Ya , maybe this is my way , this is my track , that I always like the guy who doesn't like me ...
or maybe it's my fate already to be forever single ? I dunno . It's His life , not mine , the soul inside my body is only from Him lending it to me . So ya , later I have to give it back to Him also .
So , just let it be just like what He wants it to be . I'm only His slave , just let it happens to me depends on His words...
This feeling started getting stranger and stranger...
I think I should really go see a doctor or psychiatrist to check my self . What's wrong with me ??
First thing , when I asked him whether he met any girls beside me and he said yes , I felt like my heart got a tight slap .
He even talked about this one girl he met , having problem of her life and he showed his little sympathy . Hmmm :(
Dunno why this feeling started getting stranger and stranger .
"I LIKE YOU"
Only three words . One sentence . But dunno how so difficult to be told to him .
So many questions about him swimming inside my mind . Do I bore him ? Am I boring ? Am I ugly ? Am I so bad ? Does he like another girl ? Or does he look for no girlfriend ? Is he okay ? Should I confess ? Should I wait for him to confess to me first ?
I really wished he could understand that when I say 'hmmm ok' , there're lots of questions behind it and when I say 'I'm okay' , there's a little jealous feeling behind it . But ya... only wish ...
I really don't understand about this feeling anymore .
I hate liking someone .
I hate , I hate , I hate !
Especially when the guy doesn't want me at all .
Even he forget his saying about taking me to that place this week ??
Oh shit , I'm so forgetable...
I'm hopeless , and... ya , priceless
I feel so stupid , why I like him ??
When he isn't even interested in me ?
Ya , maybe this is my way , this is my track , that I always like the guy who doesn't like me ...
or maybe it's my fate already to be forever single ? I dunno . It's His life , not mine , the soul inside my body is only from Him lending it to me . So ya , later I have to give it back to Him also .
So , just let it be just like what He wants it to be . I'm only His slave , just let it happens to me depends on His words...
My First Love ? Hmmm hehe
You know ? Listening to this song , Jadikan Aku Yang Kedua (Make Me be Your Second) by Indonesian singer , Astrid , makes me remember a lots of things about my first love . Coz I also got plan to beg him to make me be his second , although I cancelled my plan coz I realized it was stupid .
Ya , my first love ... Hmmm it makes a lots of my friends , my close friends wonder , how's my first love . How he looks like , how I could fall for him , how I met him , etc . lol
Well ... okay , let me explain in this post . Hehe..
So uhmm... I first time saw him when I was in 1st year of my secondary school . First time I met him , hmmm no special impression ...
Ya , at that time , he was running to my class , then suddenly stopped in front of my desk (I was sitting on front row in class) , then took my pencil case , opened it and took out my compass (that one , normally used to draw circle) from it , and then he looked at me and said "Hey , let me borrow it , okay ? Later I'll give it back to you !" I just nodded and then he ran back to his class . I think he was in hurry at that time .
Then second time I saw him , hmmm this time is special time . I fell in love at the first sight . Ya , I saw him drinking soft drink at the corner of male dormitory in my school . At that time was school camping day for scout students . I joined that camping coz I joined scout club .
You know ? The time when I saw him , I was stunned , I just kept staring at him from my tent . Till then the next day , I asked my best friend about who he is . Then this best friend told me that actually he was his classmate . So , ok , I asked him to help me know more about him .
Then the next day , my best friend suddenly just dragged him to my class in break time . WTH , I was shocked and I ran away from my class . I was too shy . Three times in three days , he tried to meet me in my class just to see my face and say hello to me but I always escaped . Now I realize that it's stupid , I was too shy till I couldn't get him . STUPID . But ok la , it's over already ma .
Okay , next , on the second year of my secondary school , I got his phone number . OMG , his phone number !! You know how I got that ? Ya , my friend got help me in this case . She was in the same class with him . Then she just anyhow asked him about his phone number . Then after she got it , she gave it to me , but I must 'pay' her . She asked me to do her English homework , so ok , I did hers lah . Hehehe . So then on Saturday , I messaged him . I told him that it was me . Then he replied ! OMG ! I was so damn happy like hell . Whoa , so yeah , I did the texting till late at night .
On my third year of secondary school , I gave him a cat doll for valentine gift . Then at that time , white day was popular , so he gave me lots of chocolate wrapped with pink paper with rose prints on March 14th , 2009 (white day) . Whoa , I was so damn happy !!! My mom also knew about it . She started asking me about this guy . Like how we met , how I knew him , etc. So , I just told her lah . She then gave me lecture about love . She told me that actually I was too young to know about real love . So I was quite sad , she's kinda forbid me to have relationship .
Then one day , I found his wallet and file holder left inside his drawer in class . So , it made me really want to see what's inside . I didn't mean to steal his money though , just wanted to see his student card , etc . Haha
So what I found was his student card , his mother's name card , his mother's business card , and lots of his data like birth certificate , parents data , etc .
So from that I knew that he's the only child of his parents , and he's older than me 1 year , I knew his parent's names , I knew his address , home number , mother's business , etc . His mom opened a shop selling golds and jewels in Jakarta . When I told that to my mom , she was like hmmm you know ? She gave me that excited look and her eyes were kinda saying like "GET HIM ASAP !!!"
Aiyoh , all mothers in this world I think the same , always want the daughter to get rich guy lah . Wah liao...
So then next , when I was in high school / junior college . First year , on semester two , I found out...
On FB , he stated that he was in relationship with my best friend . WTF ??
I was crying out loud at night on that day . What a f***ing slut she is . WTH , snatching my crush , whom I was waiting for him to confess to me for four years . She got him after one year only . WTH , if can't make a reality , can't make my dream comes true , don't give hope la !!! Si beh jialat le ...
Ya , my first love ... Hmmm it makes a lots of my friends , my close friends wonder , how's my first love . How he looks like , how I could fall for him , how I met him , etc . lol
Well ... okay , let me explain in this post . Hehe..
So uhmm... I first time saw him when I was in 1st year of my secondary school . First time I met him , hmmm no special impression ...
Ya , at that time , he was running to my class , then suddenly stopped in front of my desk (I was sitting on front row in class) , then took my pencil case , opened it and took out my compass (that one , normally used to draw circle) from it , and then he looked at me and said "Hey , let me borrow it , okay ? Later I'll give it back to you !" I just nodded and then he ran back to his class . I think he was in hurry at that time .
Then second time I saw him , hmmm this time is special time . I fell in love at the first sight . Ya , I saw him drinking soft drink at the corner of male dormitory in my school . At that time was school camping day for scout students . I joined that camping coz I joined scout club .
You know ? The time when I saw him , I was stunned , I just kept staring at him from my tent . Till then the next day , I asked my best friend about who he is . Then this best friend told me that actually he was his classmate . So , ok , I asked him to help me know more about him .
Then the next day , my best friend suddenly just dragged him to my class in break time . WTH , I was shocked and I ran away from my class . I was too shy . Three times in three days , he tried to meet me in my class just to see my face and say hello to me but I always escaped . Now I realize that it's stupid , I was too shy till I couldn't get him . STUPID . But ok la , it's over already ma .
Okay , next , on the second year of my secondary school , I got his phone number . OMG , his phone number !! You know how I got that ? Ya , my friend got help me in this case . She was in the same class with him . Then she just anyhow asked him about his phone number . Then after she got it , she gave it to me , but I must 'pay' her . She asked me to do her English homework , so ok , I did hers lah . Hehehe . So then on Saturday , I messaged him . I told him that it was me . Then he replied ! OMG ! I was so damn happy like hell . Whoa , so yeah , I did the texting till late at night .
On my third year of secondary school , I gave him a cat doll for valentine gift . Then at that time , white day was popular , so he gave me lots of chocolate wrapped with pink paper with rose prints on March 14th , 2009 (white day) . Whoa , I was so damn happy !!! My mom also knew about it . She started asking me about this guy . Like how we met , how I knew him , etc. So , I just told her lah . She then gave me lecture about love . She told me that actually I was too young to know about real love . So I was quite sad , she's kinda forbid me to have relationship .
Then one day , I found his wallet and file holder left inside his drawer in class . So , it made me really want to see what's inside . I didn't mean to steal his money though , just wanted to see his student card , etc . Haha
So what I found was his student card , his mother's name card , his mother's business card , and lots of his data like birth certificate , parents data , etc .
So from that I knew that he's the only child of his parents , and he's older than me 1 year , I knew his parent's names , I knew his address , home number , mother's business , etc . His mom opened a shop selling golds and jewels in Jakarta . When I told that to my mom , she was like hmmm you know ? She gave me that excited look and her eyes were kinda saying like "GET HIM ASAP !!!"
Aiyoh , all mothers in this world I think the same , always want the daughter to get rich guy lah . Wah liao...
So then next , when I was in high school / junior college . First year , on semester two , I found out...
On FB , he stated that he was in relationship with my best friend . WTF ??
I was crying out loud at night on that day . What a f***ing slut she is . WTH , snatching my crush , whom I was waiting for him to confess to me for four years . She got him after one year only . WTH , if can't make a reality , can't make my dream comes true , don't give hope la !!! Si beh jialat le ...
Yay !! Finally !!!
Oh my God ! It's like a dream ! Yay , finally he messaged me after long time waiting for him yesterday night . He messaged me today in the dawn at 1.53 AM . Lucky I wasn't asleep , and then I chatted with him till 4 plus in the dawn on what's app . Feeling so damn happy sia !
Aiyoh , the more I keep this feeling , I think the more it grows . Even it keeps staying there and feeling more comfortable .
Really , I almost confess to him for so many times . Lucky I can still tahan my mouth not to say , also can still tahan my fingers not to press 'send' button for this confession thingy .
You know ? Sometimes , I'm afraid to confess also , because I'm afraid if maybe he doesn't like me , then he will stop talking to me forever after knowing my feeling , doesn't want to give me hope . Wah liao , that's bad sia .
But , sometimes , I also want to confess , because I often hear people say "Tell him/her about your feeling ASAP , so that it won't be too late . If it's too late , later you will regret not telling him/her about your feeling ."
Ya lor , very damn true .
I can't imagine if maybe one day when I confess to him , then he already like another girl , or maybe even got girlfriend already . Alamak ! It's too late and makes me wanna jump off from tenth floor of a HDB . *touch wood* Hahahaha . No la . Maybe if that happens , I'll just cry cry cry inside my room , and then the next day , my school mates can see me in that panda eyes , too much crying and no sleeping . Hmmm sounds stupid though , but might happen to me .
Hmmm but ok la , life happens ... Just let it be .
Aiyoh , the more I keep this feeling , I think the more it grows . Even it keeps staying there and feeling more comfortable .
Really , I almost confess to him for so many times . Lucky I can still tahan my mouth not to say , also can still tahan my fingers not to press 'send' button for this confession thingy .
You know ? Sometimes , I'm afraid to confess also , because I'm afraid if maybe he doesn't like me , then he will stop talking to me forever after knowing my feeling , doesn't want to give me hope . Wah liao , that's bad sia .
But , sometimes , I also want to confess , because I often hear people say "Tell him/her about your feeling ASAP , so that it won't be too late . If it's too late , later you will regret not telling him/her about your feeling ."
Ya lor , very damn true .
I can't imagine if maybe one day when I confess to him , then he already like another girl , or maybe even got girlfriend already . Alamak ! It's too late and makes me wanna jump off from tenth floor of a HDB . *touch wood* Hahahaha . No la . Maybe if that happens , I'll just cry cry cry inside my room , and then the next day , my school mates can see me in that panda eyes , too much crying and no sleeping . Hmmm sounds stupid though , but might happen to me .
Hmmm but ok la , life happens ... Just let it be .
29 Mar 2013
What's Wrong ?? Aaaaaaa
Okay , today I really panic , really panic already . Normally when he didn't message till night I'm okay . But today , he didn't message me , even his what's app showed that he's last seen on 4.04 AM . Aiyoh , what's wrong with him ?? I hope he's okay , why so long time not online . It's not ordinary . Normally in a day , I can see him online on what's app like few times , but today never online one . Only that last time we had conversation , 4.04 AM in the dawn . Oh no... I hope he doesn't block me on what's app .
Hmmm , what to do ? What to do ? Should I message him first ? Oh no no , don't . Messaging guy first is not my style . Just wait...wait...wait... Hmmm I think if he hasn't messaged me yet till the next day , that will make me so damn stress and panic as well . I'm afraid if something bad happened to him or something so that he is unable to text me .
Oh God...
Hmmm , what happened with him ?
Really , I can't think clearly now , I'm so damn panic . Should I go to his house and see what happened ?
Stupid , I dunno his house number , I know his block only and the road , but dunno the number . Aiyoh , I can't calm my self down...
How can I sleep later ??? Oh please please , stop thinking too much about him . He's okay ... He's okay ...
Or is it because he read my post about confession ? Is it because he thinks that I like another guy so he chose not to disturb me or something ? Wah liao , why doesn't he realize that it's him whom I like ?? Should I tell him directly that I like him ? I mean immediately confess to him ? Oh no... I must prepare my self first if I want to confess ...
Oh please , I hope he knows about this and let me know ASAP .
You know ? My friend , a girl , said that he's nearly 25 , no longer a little boy , so actually sooner or later he'll know by him self that it's him whom I like . Really ? But when ?? One week later ? One month later ? Or one year later ?? Wah liao , I'm so damn confused sia .
Actually I confess to him first also ok , but I also want him to confess first to me .
I can't read his mind .
I can't read his heart .
That's why I can't also read his feeling .
I think I'm still not so well experienced in reading feeling also .
Or wait...
Does it mean that he doesn't like me ? So that he stops talking to me ??
Shit , this is what I hate of liking someone . That feeling of being rejected .
Actually I'm not stupid in this thing . I knew already that I must be ready to be rejected when I like someone , but ya , it's just because of my self is too stubborn , can still like someone easily . Wth ...
Really , now I dunno I have to be sad , or stress , or panic , or even crazy ?
I want to cry .
I'm so damn confused about this feeling .
Ya , it's getting stranger and stranger .
Maybe it's because my heart has started loosing its function .
...
Hmmm , what to do ? What to do ? Should I message him first ? Oh no no , don't . Messaging guy first is not my style . Just wait...wait...wait... Hmmm I think if he hasn't messaged me yet till the next day , that will make me so damn stress and panic as well . I'm afraid if something bad happened to him or something so that he is unable to text me .
Oh God...
Hmmm , what happened with him ?
Really , I can't think clearly now , I'm so damn panic . Should I go to his house and see what happened ?
Stupid , I dunno his house number , I know his block only and the road , but dunno the number . Aiyoh , I can't calm my self down...
How can I sleep later ??? Oh please please , stop thinking too much about him . He's okay ... He's okay ...
Or is it because he read my post about confession ? Is it because he thinks that I like another guy so he chose not to disturb me or something ? Wah liao , why doesn't he realize that it's him whom I like ?? Should I tell him directly that I like him ? I mean immediately confess to him ? Oh no... I must prepare my self first if I want to confess ...
Oh please , I hope he knows about this and let me know ASAP .
You know ? My friend , a girl , said that he's nearly 25 , no longer a little boy , so actually sooner or later he'll know by him self that it's him whom I like . Really ? But when ?? One week later ? One month later ? Or one year later ?? Wah liao , I'm so damn confused sia .
Actually I confess to him first also ok , but I also want him to confess first to me .
I can't read his mind .
I can't read his heart .
That's why I can't also read his feeling .
I think I'm still not so well experienced in reading feeling also .
Or wait...
Does it mean that he doesn't like me ? So that he stops talking to me ??
Shit , this is what I hate of liking someone . That feeling of being rejected .
Actually I'm not stupid in this thing . I knew already that I must be ready to be rejected when I like someone , but ya , it's just because of my self is too stubborn , can still like someone easily . Wth ...
Really , now I dunno I have to be sad , or stress , or panic , or even crazy ?
I want to cry .
I'm so damn confused about this feeling .
Ya , it's getting stranger and stranger .
Maybe it's because my heart has started loosing its function .
...
28 Mar 2013
Confession... Hmmm ?
Really , I think this is my bad (or good ? Not sure though) . I always can't hide my feeling . Every time I like a guy , it's always ended up I confess first to the guy . You know ? How I wished I could hear a confession , serious confession from a guy , stating that he likes me and I also like him . So far , the guys who liked me always those kind of freaks , you know ? So scary , first guy who liked me , kinda strange sia , can talk by him self , his face looked like a person without any life hope anymore , and I think he never combed his hair or what , so messy , wah liao . The next guy who liked me (and ya , he was my second ex though , I accepted him coz he spammed me everyday ,"wan be my gf ?" "eh how ? wan be my gf ?" whoa like hell !) , he was so damn tall , 192 cm ! Then I think he's a psycho or what , everyday became so overprotective to me . Every seconds , minutes , hours got text me , call me text me ,call me , and text me , overly attached to me liao ! He thought what ? I didn't have anything to do or what ? He thought I was so free arh ? Wah liao , he really couldn't tahan if not contact me in one second only . Called me also mostly to scold me also .
Okay , back to the topic ...
You know ? Actually I like a guy right now . Actually I wanna hide my feeling first , but once he asked me if I like any guy at the moment or no . So I answered honestly lah , as in I don't want to lie , it's a sin . So ya , I told him that I currently like a guy . Since then , he keeps asking me almost every time we chat on what's app . Really arh , few times I almost confessed to him you know ? But lucky I can still tahan my self , so I didn't confess . Aiyoh , so difficult for him arh to realize that I like him ? Hmmm maybe coz of his bad past time , being played by some girls . So then it means no chance for me to be with him ? *cry* *cry* Yeah , then it will be the twenty something of my broken heart story . Hmmm maybe if someone asked me to write a novel about my broken heart stories , I could make it for trilogy story you know ? Coz I got too much broken heart I guess , but lucky my heart still has that normal function .
Anyway , I dunno how to confess to him also . I must be so embarrassed . I planned to confess to him when I meet him . Not via text or call , so not gentle . I must show that I'm not playing or something. But dunno how to confess in good way . Here's some ways I planned to use , not good one though .
First way :
Me : "Uhm... I like you !"
(Confirm creepy one , suddenly say I like you when we're still eating dinner , later he shocked then got choked by the chopstick , how ?)
Second way :
Writing wo xi huan ni on a paper then put inside envelope and give it to him during dinner together .
(but what if later after he read it then he says "Hahaha , 开 玩 笑 arh ??" yeah fail...)
Third way :
Me : "Eh you know ? Actually the guy I like is you..."
But what if he replies ...
Him : "But I don't like you ..."
Confirm I will be like...
Me : "Hmmm okay... I need to go to toilet first... *stand up and walk to the toilet , walk a bit then fall down* shit , this 12 cm high heels really really kill me !!"
Him : *come to me* "Eh , you ok or not ??"
Me : "Okay okay , I'm okay , don't touch me !"
Another fail...
Fourth way :
Confess during movie ...
Me : *whisper*"I like you "
Him : "What ?? You mean you like that guy in that movie ? Oh no wonder lah , he's so damn shuai ge le !"
Me : *covered face with both hands , oh God , why ???*
Fifth way :
Confess when he's driving me back home...
Me : Eh you want to know my biggest secret ? I think I must share this with you only .
Him *keep driving* Yeah sure , what is that ?
Me : I think I like you
Him : *shocked , then couldn't focus with the driving and crashed a tree*
Oh ... okay , better forget this way then...
Sixth way :
Confess inside the crowded MRT
Me : *whisper* "Eh , you know arh ? Actually I like you..."
Him : *because of the MRT is too crowded and noisy , can't hear clearly* "What ?? Can you say again louder ?"
Me : *talk a bit louder* I like you...
Him : *still can't hear* What ? You what ?
Me : *talk louder* Aiya... I like you .
Him : *again...*"What ??"
Me : *talk in the loudest whisper* I LIKE YOU !!!
The whole MRT passengers : Awwwww so sweettttttt !!! Go make her your gf ! Go make her your gf ! Go make her your gf !
Me and Him : *embarrassed* *face palm* *awkward smiles*
O...kay... next ?
Seventh way :
Confess in bus stop after hang out
Me : Hmmm I got one thing that I really can't wait to tell you...
Him : What's that ?
Me : I think I...
Him : Eh eh , your bus ! You better fast go ! It's the last bus !
Me : But but... I ...
Him : *pushing me into the bus* Aiya , next time can also tell me what , come , go in ! Good bye ... be careful !
Me : *forever alone face*
And yeah... there are the seven ways I already thought . Nothing is correct , right ? Yeah , I can't hide my feeling like a pro , but also can't confess like a pro . Aiyoh , so damn crazy sia ...
Okay , back to the topic ...
You know ? Actually I like a guy right now . Actually I wanna hide my feeling first , but once he asked me if I like any guy at the moment or no . So I answered honestly lah , as in I don't want to lie , it's a sin . So ya , I told him that I currently like a guy . Since then , he keeps asking me almost every time we chat on what's app . Really arh , few times I almost confessed to him you know ? But lucky I can still tahan my self , so I didn't confess . Aiyoh , so difficult for him arh to realize that I like him ? Hmmm maybe coz of his bad past time , being played by some girls . So then it means no chance for me to be with him ? *cry* *cry* Yeah , then it will be the twenty something of my broken heart story . Hmmm maybe if someone asked me to write a novel about my broken heart stories , I could make it for trilogy story you know ? Coz I got too much broken heart I guess , but lucky my heart still has that normal function .
Anyway , I dunno how to confess to him also . I must be so embarrassed . I planned to confess to him when I meet him . Not via text or call , so not gentle . I must show that I'm not playing or something. But dunno how to confess in good way . Here's some ways I planned to use , not good one though .
First way :
Me : "Uhm... I like you !"
(Confirm creepy one , suddenly say I like you when we're still eating dinner , later he shocked then got choked by the chopstick , how ?)
Second way :
Writing wo xi huan ni on a paper then put inside envelope and give it to him during dinner together .
(but what if later after he read it then he says "Hahaha , 开 玩 笑 arh ??" yeah fail...)
Third way :
Me : "Eh you know ? Actually the guy I like is you..."
But what if he replies ...
Him : "But I don't like you ..."
Confirm I will be like...
Me : "Hmmm okay... I need to go to toilet first... *stand up and walk to the toilet , walk a bit then fall down* shit , this 12 cm high heels really really kill me !!"
Him : *come to me* "Eh , you ok or not ??"
Me : "Okay okay , I'm okay , don't touch me !"
Another fail...
Fourth way :
Confess during movie ...
Me : *whisper*"I like you "
Him : "What ?? You mean you like that guy in that movie ? Oh no wonder lah , he's so damn shuai ge le !"
Me : *covered face with both hands , oh God , why ???*
Fifth way :
Confess when he's driving me back home...
Me : Eh you want to know my biggest secret ? I think I must share this with you only .
Him *keep driving* Yeah sure , what is that ?
Me : I think I like you
Him : *shocked , then couldn't focus with the driving and crashed a tree*
Oh ... okay , better forget this way then...
Sixth way :
Confess inside the crowded MRT
Me : *whisper* "Eh , you know arh ? Actually I like you..."
Him : *because of the MRT is too crowded and noisy , can't hear clearly* "What ?? Can you say again louder ?"
Me : *talk a bit louder* I like you...
Him : *still can't hear* What ? You what ?
Me : *talk louder* Aiya... I like you .
Him : *again...*"What ??"
Me : *talk in the loudest whisper* I LIKE YOU !!!
The whole MRT passengers : Awwwww so sweettttttt !!! Go make her your gf ! Go make her your gf ! Go make her your gf !
Me and Him : *embarrassed* *face palm* *awkward smiles*
O...kay... next ?
Seventh way :
Confess in bus stop after hang out
Me : Hmmm I got one thing that I really can't wait to tell you...
Him : What's that ?
Me : I think I...
Him : Eh eh , your bus ! You better fast go ! It's the last bus !
Me : But but... I ...
Him : *pushing me into the bus* Aiya , next time can also tell me what , come , go in ! Good bye ... be careful !
Me : *forever alone face*
And yeah... there are the seven ways I already thought . Nothing is correct , right ? Yeah , I can't hide my feeling like a pro , but also can't confess like a pro . Aiyoh , so damn crazy sia ...
Good Friday (Early in The Morning)
Heyyyyaa all ! Well , dunno why sometimes my brain works so slow one . You know ? Actually I realized it was nearly 2.00 AM in the dawn , but still I bought coffee from vending machine inside my hostel . Wah liao !! Wanna stay up till morning ah ?? So siao ! What's wrong with my brain arh ? The worst thing is that I drank it directly after I bought it . Really arh , I will stay awake till morning I guess ...
Hmmm maybe I should be awake instead of sleeping . I must work harder for the sake of my grades in school . Coz today I got my illustration project back to me and I got C . Wth , C ??? Why decreased ?? Last project I got B . Aiyoh , must got A next time ! Sounds impossible though . But must try !! If not then how can I get scholarship ? Hmmm , I know it's not easy , but I shouldn't give up . Give up has never been exist in my mind for school thingy .
Talking about grades , I remember last time in secondary school and junior college , the highest marks I got always came from Mandarin , English , and Art . Lol
Even I got 100 for Mandarin final exam in Secondary school . Wah liao , but now dunno why my Chinese is so damn bad in Singapore . When people are talking in Chinese here , I do understand , but dunno why I can't answer back , I'm scared if I got the wrong tones then the meaning will change . I'm afraid if there's any misunderstanding between me and them because of my wrong meaning in Chinese . Lol . But ok la , keep trying !!! Yay , haha
Hmmm maybe I should be awake instead of sleeping . I must work harder for the sake of my grades in school . Coz today I got my illustration project back to me and I got C . Wth , C ??? Why decreased ?? Last project I got B . Aiyoh , must got A next time ! Sounds impossible though . But must try !! If not then how can I get scholarship ? Hmmm , I know it's not easy , but I shouldn't give up . Give up has never been exist in my mind for school thingy .
Talking about grades , I remember last time in secondary school and junior college , the highest marks I got always came from Mandarin , English , and Art . Lol
Even I got 100 for Mandarin final exam in Secondary school . Wah liao , but now dunno why my Chinese is so damn bad in Singapore . When people are talking in Chinese here , I do understand , but dunno why I can't answer back , I'm scared if I got the wrong tones then the meaning will change . I'm afraid if there's any misunderstanding between me and them because of my wrong meaning in Chinese . Lol . But ok la , keep trying !!! Yay , haha
27 Mar 2013
Assignment Submission
Well , I'm gonna talk about the submission thingy at school .
You know ? In my school , normally students are having a lots of submission started on week 10 on wards . Then , ya , whoa , si beh jialat . Normally , I'll have some days without sleeping at night . Wah liao , the assignments so many .
Two days ago , I didn't sleep for the whole night , because when I checked my project brief , I noticed that the next day was the submission for pattern making class . Ya , I have to make the pattern of my blouse project . Yay , can't wait to wear my own made blouse ! Okay , so ya , I stayed awake for the whole night till I was so tired the next day . I attended class with my panda eyes . But you know what I got that day ??? So crazy ! The lecturer said that no need to submit that day , he delayed the submission to next week . Wah liao eh ! I already stayed up late just to finish the pattern ... and he said that no need submit on that day ?? Same thing happened to me also last year , stayed up for the whole night but no need to submit on the next day .
Oh no... so bad :(
But ok la , at least can take rest next week , no need to make again , hahaha
You know ? In my school , normally students are having a lots of submission started on week 10 on wards . Then , ya , whoa , si beh jialat . Normally , I'll have some days without sleeping at night . Wah liao , the assignments so many .
Two days ago , I didn't sleep for the whole night , because when I checked my project brief , I noticed that the next day was the submission for pattern making class . Ya , I have to make the pattern of my blouse project . Yay , can't wait to wear my own made blouse ! Okay , so ya , I stayed awake for the whole night till I was so tired the next day . I attended class with my panda eyes . But you know what I got that day ??? So crazy ! The lecturer said that no need to submit that day , he delayed the submission to next week . Wah liao eh ! I already stayed up late just to finish the pattern ... and he said that no need submit on that day ?? Same thing happened to me also last year , stayed up for the whole night but no need to submit on the next day .
Oh no... so bad :(
But ok la , at least can take rest next week , no need to make again , hahaha
24 Mar 2013
Introducing my self
Hi hi
So in this post I'm gonna introduce my self
So that everyone can know me better lah .
So okay...
My name on my birth certificate is Vania Kartika Chandra . I was born on September 20th , 1994 , in Malang , East Java - Indonesia .
Ya , so many people asked me if I'm a mix blood or something . Hmmm maybe because of my name . Hahaha . Ya , my name is kinda like Indian name mixed with Hebrew , but when they see my face , they say that I look so damn Chinese . Okay , okay let me explain now :)
Actually I'm a Chinese descendant , my great grandparents migrated from Guang Zhou , China to Indonesia . They settled in Malang , East Java - Indonesia . Then , they had kids , my grand parents . Then my grand parents got married in Indonesia also , till the had kids , my parents and their siblings . My Dad comes from Cantonese family , but my mom comes from Hokien family . I , my self , can be considered as Cantonese girl , since in Chinese family , the children normally will follow the Dad's family line . I got my Chinese name as well . My Chinese name is 张 蓉 女里 (Zhang Rong Li) . But I never used my Chinese name for official use , such as student card , birth certificate , IC , etc. Since last time on 1970s or something , in Indonesia got new rule that stating that all Chinese people must change their Chinese name into Indonesian name . So , ya , my parents gave me Indonesian name , but the gave me Chinese name also . In family thingy , I'm always called in my Chinese name . Sometimes , it's so funny also when my friend called me at home , then my mom or dad picked up the phone , they can just sometimes forget my Indonesian name , so once my friend asked "Hello , may I speak to Vania ?" then my mom said "Oh , Vania ? Who's that ? " then few minutes later realized that Vania is her own daughter . Hahahah , no woder liao , she always calls me in Chinese name , Rong Li .
Mostly Chinese people in Indonesia got two names , Chinese and Indonesian names , but few Chinese people only got Indonesian name .
Okay next is about my baptist name , ya , since I'm a Catholic , I must be baptized . I actually got three baptist names , Vincentia Maria Josephine . But I often use the Josephine one . Sounds nicer , lol . So ya , I started using Josephine Zhang as my username everywhere , or if not , can call me Joshie or Jo also , simpler , better than if I say my name is Vania , some people can just misunderstand . Well it's true , when I introduced my self as Vania , the next day , got one girl called me Tiffany , then the next day a guy called me Stephanie , then the next day , got one aunty called me Tania , and the worst thing is , once got a friend called me Clara ... Wah liao , so far leh ! From Vania changed into Clara . Okay , so Jo , or Joshie or Josephine much better .
For some friends , especially the Chinese friends , some of them prefer calling me Rong Li , so I just let them call me like that , I'm also ok with Chinese name . Hahaha
Okay , next !!!
I completed my primary school , secondary school , and high school (junior college) in Indonesia , and the school name all same , Saint Joseph College , a Chinese school in my hometown , in Chinese name it's called 华 印 (Hua Yin) , then when the Indonesian government asked my school to change into Indonesian name , it's changed into Saint Joseph College . Some old people in Indonesia still recognize it as Hua Yin though . It's kinda famous school in my hometown , actually not just famous in my hometown , but famous in Indonesia as welll . I dunno why famous , some people say that it's famous because of its disciplinary , some people say that it's famous of its good study environment , some people say that it's famous of having tests and homeworks everyday , but to me , I don't care whether it's famous or not , I do still love my school !!! <3
Now , I currently study in NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts) , Singapore . I take the fashion design course , currently still in year one though . I will be in second year in this coming July .
I got one younger brother , he's turning 16 this year , still studying in high school in Indonesia .
Anyway , if you want to know me more , can contact me on Facebook : www.facebook.com/josevanzz , or by email also can liao : vania.chandra94@gmail.com
Okay , later if I need to add more introduction , I'll update again :) cya have a g'day !
So in this post I'm gonna introduce my self
So that everyone can know me better lah .
So okay...
My name on my birth certificate is Vania Kartika Chandra . I was born on September 20th , 1994 , in Malang , East Java - Indonesia .
Ya , so many people asked me if I'm a mix blood or something . Hmmm maybe because of my name . Hahaha . Ya , my name is kinda like Indian name mixed with Hebrew , but when they see my face , they say that I look so damn Chinese . Okay , okay let me explain now :)
Actually I'm a Chinese descendant , my great grandparents migrated from Guang Zhou , China to Indonesia . They settled in Malang , East Java - Indonesia . Then , they had kids , my grand parents . Then my grand parents got married in Indonesia also , till the had kids , my parents and their siblings . My Dad comes from Cantonese family , but my mom comes from Hokien family . I , my self , can be considered as Cantonese girl , since in Chinese family , the children normally will follow the Dad's family line . I got my Chinese name as well . My Chinese name is 张 蓉 女里 (Zhang Rong Li) . But I never used my Chinese name for official use , such as student card , birth certificate , IC , etc. Since last time on 1970s or something , in Indonesia got new rule that stating that all Chinese people must change their Chinese name into Indonesian name . So , ya , my parents gave me Indonesian name , but the gave me Chinese name also . In family thingy , I'm always called in my Chinese name . Sometimes , it's so funny also when my friend called me at home , then my mom or dad picked up the phone , they can just sometimes forget my Indonesian name , so once my friend asked "Hello , may I speak to Vania ?" then my mom said "Oh , Vania ? Who's that ? " then few minutes later realized that Vania is her own daughter . Hahahah , no woder liao , she always calls me in Chinese name , Rong Li .
Mostly Chinese people in Indonesia got two names , Chinese and Indonesian names , but few Chinese people only got Indonesian name .
Okay next is about my baptist name , ya , since I'm a Catholic , I must be baptized . I actually got three baptist names , Vincentia Maria Josephine . But I often use the Josephine one . Sounds nicer , lol . So ya , I started using Josephine Zhang as my username everywhere , or if not , can call me Joshie or Jo also , simpler , better than if I say my name is Vania , some people can just misunderstand . Well it's true , when I introduced my self as Vania , the next day , got one girl called me Tiffany , then the next day a guy called me Stephanie , then the next day , got one aunty called me Tania , and the worst thing is , once got a friend called me Clara ... Wah liao , so far leh ! From Vania changed into Clara . Okay , so Jo , or Joshie or Josephine much better .
For some friends , especially the Chinese friends , some of them prefer calling me Rong Li , so I just let them call me like that , I'm also ok with Chinese name . Hahaha
Okay , next !!!
I completed my primary school , secondary school , and high school (junior college) in Indonesia , and the school name all same , Saint Joseph College , a Chinese school in my hometown , in Chinese name it's called 华 印 (Hua Yin) , then when the Indonesian government asked my school to change into Indonesian name , it's changed into Saint Joseph College . Some old people in Indonesia still recognize it as Hua Yin though . It's kinda famous school in my hometown , actually not just famous in my hometown , but famous in Indonesia as welll . I dunno why famous , some people say that it's famous because of its disciplinary , some people say that it's famous of its good study environment , some people say that it's famous of having tests and homeworks everyday , but to me , I don't care whether it's famous or not , I do still love my school !!! <3
Now , I currently study in NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts) , Singapore . I take the fashion design course , currently still in year one though . I will be in second year in this coming July .
I got one younger brother , he's turning 16 this year , still studying in high school in Indonesia .
Anyway , if you want to know me more , can contact me on Facebook : www.facebook.com/josevanzz , or by email also can liao : vania.chandra94@gmail.com
Okay , later if I need to add more introduction , I'll update again :) cya have a g'day !
23 Mar 2013
Sunday , March 24th , 2013
Hey , hey !! I'm back .
Anyway , today is the Palm Sunday celebration for the catholic people . Since I'm a catholic also , so yeah today I went to church in the morning . Actually yesterday I already went to church , but ya , I didn't get any palm leaves . So , today I went to church again to get one . And ya... I got one !! Yay .
Although I had to wake up early in the morning , I woke up at 9.30 AM , uhmmm ya , I know it's not early , but at least earlier than my wake up time on Sunday (normally I wake up at 12.00 PM on Sunday , hahaha) .
After from church , I got this strange experience . One aunty suddenly stopped me in front of church with eyes opened wide wide , dunno whether she's excited or wanted to eat me or what . Here's the convo started .
Aunty : "Hey , girl girl arh ! What's the brand of your bag ??" *kept staring on my simple small back pack*
Me : *a bit scared* "Oh , it's not branded one , got no brand , last time my mum..."
Aunty : *chopped off my talking* "Oh wait wait , is it MEL ?? Or what ?? You know ? Some brands got that complicated design , but this one so nice , simple design !"
Me : "Hmmm actually it's from my mum , last time she went to Thailand and bought me this one ..."
Aunty : "Oh from China arh ??"
Me :"No , no , I'm Indonesian , but last time my mom went to Thailand and bought me this .."
Aunty : "Oh , bought in China ?"
Me : "No , Thailand "
Aunty : "Ohh Thailand ..."
Wah liao , so shocking sia , I thought I accidentally drag her stuffs by my bag or something , till she stopped me and kept staring on my bag .
Okay , okay , enough about that aunty . So ya , continue ...
After that I went to Bugis plus , to buy Koi Jasmine Green Tea . Yay ! Anyway , FYI only , I really like the tea from Koi , and I only buy this one kind of tea everytime I go there .
I think sooner or later the cashier won't need to ask me anymore already knew what I want to order . Yeah , I always order that Jasmine Green Tea , medium , no pearl , no milk , sugar level 70% . Lol , I really really love this jasmine green tea . Today I was the 6th customer , lol so early huh ?
Then after that I just walked around inside Bugis Plus while finishing my jasmine green tea . After that , I went to Chinatown to buy some stuffs for my fashion design course in NAFA . I bought 2 meters of calico , 1 yard of interfacing , 6 buttons , and 2 packs of thread . Ya , final projects are coming soon , must buy the stuffs now .
Then , ya , since I'm not that kind of girl who likes staying at home nicely doing nothing , I went to Vivo city , to walk walk around only . Then , I remembered that my mom asked me to look for some long cardigans for my grandmas . So , ya , I visited Cotton On there , found few cardigans there but ya , I think my mom got that perfect standard in clothing , she said she didn't like the cardigans , so okay , next shop ! I went to Forever 21 , also she didn't like the cardigans . Aiyoh , so what kind of cardigans she actually wants ?? Once got one nice design , I sent her the pic yesterday or two days ago , I forget , she said it's nice , but then when she asked me the price ... Ya , she said , "No way !! Go find another one !" Hmmm but it's fair I guess ? If you want any good stuffs must pay in 'good' price also mah...
So okay , I gave up for today , maybe (just maybe) another day can find the better one ...
Hahaha so ya , that's my journey for this morning till afternoon . Later I'll update again if I go out in the evening , most probably no , but who knows ? Lol
Anyway , today is the Palm Sunday celebration for the catholic people . Since I'm a catholic also , so yeah today I went to church in the morning . Actually yesterday I already went to church , but ya , I didn't get any palm leaves . So , today I went to church again to get one . And ya... I got one !! Yay .
Although I had to wake up early in the morning , I woke up at 9.30 AM , uhmmm ya , I know it's not early , but at least earlier than my wake up time on Sunday (normally I wake up at 12.00 PM on Sunday , hahaha) .
After from church , I got this strange experience . One aunty suddenly stopped me in front of church with eyes opened wide wide , dunno whether she's excited or wanted to eat me or what . Here's the convo started .
Aunty : "Hey , girl girl arh ! What's the brand of your bag ??" *kept staring on my simple small back pack*
Me : *a bit scared* "Oh , it's not branded one , got no brand , last time my mum..."
Aunty : *chopped off my talking* "Oh wait wait , is it MEL ?? Or what ?? You know ? Some brands got that complicated design , but this one so nice , simple design !"
Me : "Hmmm actually it's from my mum , last time she went to Thailand and bought me this one ..."
Aunty : "Oh from China arh ??"
Me :"No , no , I'm Indonesian , but last time my mom went to Thailand and bought me this .."
Aunty : "Oh , bought in China ?"
Me : "No , Thailand "
Aunty : "Ohh Thailand ..."
Wah liao , so shocking sia , I thought I accidentally drag her stuffs by my bag or something , till she stopped me and kept staring on my bag .
Okay , okay , enough about that aunty . So ya , continue ...
After that I went to Bugis plus , to buy Koi Jasmine Green Tea . Yay ! Anyway , FYI only , I really like the tea from Koi , and I only buy this one kind of tea everytime I go there .
I think sooner or later the cashier won't need to ask me anymore already knew what I want to order . Yeah , I always order that Jasmine Green Tea , medium , no pearl , no milk , sugar level 70% . Lol , I really really love this jasmine green tea . Today I was the 6th customer , lol so early huh ?
Then after that I just walked around inside Bugis Plus while finishing my jasmine green tea . After that , I went to Chinatown to buy some stuffs for my fashion design course in NAFA . I bought 2 meters of calico , 1 yard of interfacing , 6 buttons , and 2 packs of thread . Ya , final projects are coming soon , must buy the stuffs now .
Then , ya , since I'm not that kind of girl who likes staying at home nicely doing nothing , I went to Vivo city , to walk walk around only . Then , I remembered that my mom asked me to look for some long cardigans for my grandmas . So , ya , I visited Cotton On there , found few cardigans there but ya , I think my mom got that perfect standard in clothing , she said she didn't like the cardigans , so okay , next shop ! I went to Forever 21 , also she didn't like the cardigans . Aiyoh , so what kind of cardigans she actually wants ?? Once got one nice design , I sent her the pic yesterday or two days ago , I forget , she said it's nice , but then when she asked me the price ... Ya , she said , "No way !! Go find another one !" Hmmm but it's fair I guess ? If you want any good stuffs must pay in 'good' price also mah...
So okay , I gave up for today , maybe (just maybe) another day can find the better one ...
Hahaha so ya , that's my journey for this morning till afternoon . Later I'll update again if I go out in the evening , most probably no , but who knows ? Lol
Blogging again !!!
Well , long time no blogging . Now I'm gonna start blogging again . Well FYI , I'm not staying in Indonesia . I currently study in Singapore . Haha , I never guessed before that I'd be studying in this lion country . Before I came here , I insisted to study in Perth , Western Australia . Since I got a lots of friends staying there and also my ex stays there . But lucky lah I came here so that I don't need to remember about my ex anymore . Hahaha !!
So okay , firstly let me tell you that I currently study at NAFA , Singapore . What does NAFA stand for ? Well , it's the abbreviation of Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts . Yeah , some people say that it's a good art institution in Singapore . I take fashion design course there , still in year one though . So ya . I think that's enough for my first blogging again after so long not posting anything . But don't worry , later I'll post some again hor :))
So okay , firstly let me tell you that I currently study at NAFA , Singapore . What does NAFA stand for ? Well , it's the abbreviation of Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts . Yeah , some people say that it's a good art institution in Singapore . I take fashion design course there , still in year one though . So ya . I think that's enough for my first blogging again after so long not posting anything . But don't worry , later I'll post some again hor :))
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